I am me!

Mariya's First Fever

2011-11-26T09:38:00.001+10:00

For the first time in her life, my baby was down with high fever, accompanied by Mr vomitting and Mrs diarrhea. and not to mention, their lil children. miss cough and runny nose. :( I was sick last Saturday and i think maybe i have passed a lil bit of my virus to my baby. im sorrry mariya :)

Had my MC on Tuesday and baby started to feel feverish on Wednesday. Worked on Wednesday but took EL on Thursday to take care of her.
But alhamdulilah she is fine already. Thank you Allah.

On Wednesday evening, she had slight fever so i spared paracetamol and ibuprofen to her babysitter. During lunch, i went back to check on her and gave her paracetamol. ( hehe,, when it comes to medicine, i prefer to give it on my own) .The temperature went down a bit.

well after work, suddenly the Temp raised again. I gave med again but it didnt work.

So thats it with Paracetamol.

She couldnt sleep, all she did was crying the whole night out..And in between that, she had diarrhea and vomitting. I was soo panic and of course SAD :) ( i insisted to go the ER! hahah being a first time mother to an unwell baby kan)
But i remember reading somewhere, if you exclusively breastfeed your baby for the first 6 months, insyaAllah, with Allah's will, the baby will get sick less. i hope so. really hope so. So all i did that night, was hug her the whole night and of course, LOTS LOTS LOTS of breastfeeding. I dont care i didnt get any sleep , all i wanted is to see my baby smiling and laughing again.
I didnt give her med anymore. I just pray to Allah and of course, hug and kiss her. Its true, when they said, breast milk is the best medicine for baby ( at least thats what i always tell my patients). And again, Thank You Allah for that.

The next morning, the temperature is starting to go down...no more vomitting and still slight of diarhea. I know it could be a viral infection and it is self-limiting. I didnt give any med on Thurday, And again, for the whole day, she was close to my body the whole time! i hugged and carried her everywhere. ( i took EL remember :) FAMILY MUST COME FIRST no matter that day you have piling works and reports to submit!! i had to take EL for my baby. ) So by evening, the temperature was back to normal and no more vomitting, cough n runny nose. Subhanallah...

But the point im trying to convey here is, when your baby is sick, medicine is the last option. especially for the cough, runny nose, vomitting and diarhea. Let it heal by itself or do it naturally.. but of course, there are certain time period of that.

Paracetamol is still ok for the fever. To cool down a bit. but i dont give it every 4 hours . Only when i think its really high . ( sbb takut dpt fits ke ape kan.. ) . But i totally disagree with giving cough /runny nose meds to baby. NO NO! please! Im a pharmacist, yes drug works but pls dont give it to little baby.

All your baby needs is your attention, tender, loving and care, and of course, your breastmilk. ( if you cant breastfeed, formula will do) But i think, the TLC plays an important role. All these while, i only read about it. But when i experienced it myself, Masha Allah.. Allah's creation is PERFECT! You may think this is only one- time experienve for me.. so its easy for me to say. But ive been reading about this a lot. and i do tell my patients to do this. even my mum asked me to do the same thing. I guess its a common practise. Congratulations to you if you are doing it. Im a newbie here so just to share some experience. Cos i met, i had some patients who insisted to get some meds when the baby was only sick for few hours. The limit is always 3 days. Anything more than 3 days, anything with blood, or if your gut feeling tells u something is not right. ALWAYS GO TO THE DOCTOR!!

SO what to do when your baby is not so well?
Bila baby tak sihat sangat, just for a day or two, dont give ubat yet. Paracetamol is OK. but the best is natural. and of course,

Breastfeed her and hug her like really really A LOT!

6 months of Mariya

2011-10-08T00:53:00.004+10:00

Today is exactly 6 months of Mariya's life in this world. Thank you Allah.

Im still, Alhamdulillah amazed and delighted with this gift from God. Im still Alhamdulillah so far, enjoying every moments of motherhood, every single step and milestone she made. Alhamdulillah..

And thank you Allah too, for still making me able to nurse and provide the greatest milk to my baby. ( though i must admit, in my job setting, its a bit hard to express the milk during office hours... Meeting patients for drug counseling, dispensing methadone & meds, dealing with reports and not to mention, whole day meetings) Nak lunch or breakfast pun kne cepat cos need to find time to pump. but Alhamdulillah ive made it for this first 6 months and insyaAllah many more months to come. tapi mmg sgt2 kais pagi, makan pagi ok :) Im lucky to have a very supportive boss and staff to help and cover for me =) at times when i feel like giving up, but when i think of Mariya and support from Mr. the willpower to express milk comes back again. ( the challenges of breastfeeding working mother, seriously. i dont know how the doctors did it cos they are even much busier than me.. )

But anything for you, my dear Mariya. Mama will try my very best to provide the best for you!!

and today mark the day, i'd start giving my baby her first semi-solid food :) well, actually ive started last week with avocado + milk :) for the first 2 days. hehe Looks like she love it but i think she prefers banana + milk better :) And today, ive grinded organic brown rice and made porridge. together with carrot puree + brocolli puree. Ill start slow with the menu..introducing one type of food at once. Im planning to use the 4 days rule. err more like 2-3 days je kot! So far, banana ok. avocado ok. Carrot- yet to try.

I only made puree for one week stock :) and puree can be kept up to one month ye ppl :) but i prefer it to be weekly deal. So i could prepare the stock during weekend. but still have to wake up everyday early in the morning to make the porridge :) Im planning to prepare all her food myself. ( insya Allah, i hope i can stay this way ) All in plan,and hopefully will stick to it.

like i said, anything for you, my dear mariya.

Just wanna share things that have been on my mind lately.

Count your blessings! Life aint perfect but just think of the good things in life, and you'd feel your life is complete. In my case, im grateful for the lovely family that i have, a job that i look forward to go everyday, a home that i cant wait to go back daily, friends & supports that are always there when in need. Life wont be perfect but its how you perceive and think of it! Dont worry much of the unnecessary.

Till Then Ppl

Take care

The Most Beautiful Feeling..

2011-07-03T19:52:00.011+10:00

I ever had in life is

to become a mother...

my daughter at 2 hours :)

Mariya Batrisyia bt Abu Hurairah,

born on April 9th2011 , 0918 am at Hospital Columbia Asia, Seremban.

(Orang Nogori anak den nihh)

Apple of my eyes, at almost 3 months

3 MONTHS PASSED JUST LIKE THAT!

in a blink of an eye.

TRUST ME!(my to do list for pantang days/maternity leave was very long and yet to cross any!!)
All i did and i wanted to do is be with my baby 24/7!

Talking about confinement, i love pantang days! I had my rest and more importantly i get to spend time with my beloved baby.

I love waking up in the middle night, every 2 hours just to nurse her and watch her fall asleep
I love changing her nappies when she poo poo ( well sometimes Mr does) ..
I love how i have to act silly and sing loudly just to make her laugh..
I love listening to her laugh and cry and the way she talks ( baby talk!)
I love how she can easily fall asleep in my arm, while im humming to her
I love how she stares to my eyes and how our eyes met as if we are both talking
I love how I could sooth her when she cries badly, and she wants no one except her parents

I just love being a mother.
Alhamdulillah

So this update is just to let everyone know im a mother now. support breastfeeding mommies. we can do it! anywhere anytime! Ameen

Truly, it was the best FEELING ever the first time i held her, the first time i met her eyes, the first time she latched to have milk from me, the first smile, the FIRST of everything and more to come..
Im able to actually just stare at her while she was sleeping..

And ill be back to work SADLY, well i do miss my job. But can i bring my baby to work pls! Its been 3 months and i hope I can cope, she can cope while im working :( Ameen.

Here's our little family. ( on her 7th day where aqiqah was made and her hair was shaved )( Thank you Allah)

Mama's Labor Story

2011-04-09T22:53:00.000+10:00

Dear Mariya,

It was Friday, 8th of April, i was still at work but i felt slight cramps ( I had no idea that u were coming the day after :) ) Your ob in Columbia Hospital, Dr Intan was overseas and will be back on the 16th.( i was really hoping she'd be the one to deliver you but i guess we plan, Allah decide kan) Your LMP due date was supposed to be on 11 April, but your scan date was on the 8.4.2011. I was supposed to come back to the hospital on Monday, 11 April for the check up. And if tak kluar jugak, you will be induced on the 16th by Dr Intan.

As Mama works in a gov health clinic, its easy for me to do check up whenever i want. i had some pains so i went straight to the maternity clinic to get check up by the dr and the midwives. I was concerned since your head hasnt engaged. So on that particular day, i requested SN Liza ( i guess you will see this nurse often, whom im quite close too) to check whether your head has engaged or not. Alhamdulillah, it has. At 39 weeks plus! Normally sayang, baby's head engage at 37 weeks ye. But i was told, it will take time to come out, at least 3-4 days MINIMUM!

So i decided to go back to KL that weekend. Papa picked me up from work, and headed straight to KL.( No, we didnt go back to our hs in Seremban so mama tak sempat kemas2 properly d hs as if nak tinggal for 3 months!) cos i was really confident that u wont come out that weekend! I had cravings for Subway, so off we went to Bangsar. It was raining, and we missed the Subway shop at Bangsar. So we just jalan2 at Bangsar Village. I did last minute shopping for you in Mothercare while Papa was at Panwest, looking for golf stuff. ( it was just next to each other!) While walking, i felt a lil bit pain. like period pain. But it wasnt that painful. So i thought it was just like warning. you will come out in few days time.

And that night, i was sleeping at Mak Tok and Tok Ayah's place in KL. I was having the pain but i didnt tell anyone. Cos i feel like it wasnt really painful, it was more like.. period cramps :)

at around 5 am : suddenly i feel like a splash of water coming out from my body.

i woke papa up and Mak Tok was already awake.

I told them, my water has broken.

Papa was so excited and get dressed.

But i wasnt sure whether it was THE water or other kind of water.

I decided to wait after Subuh before heading to Seremban! ( mind you from KL)
On my mind, i was like,, should i just go to HKL or to the Columbia Hospital where you do your routine check up. But dr Intan wasnt around!

Then, the water came out again.

So after Subuh, we sped , well Papa sped to Columbia Hospital

and there, around 7, the water came out again. and i was already in the labour room.
But I noticed something different.. the color.

something was telling me, something;s not right.

I was so worried. After all the check up ( oh, i didnt realise i dah terbukak 4 cm ok!) I didnt know that the cramp pain tu, is actually labor pain! ( silly me!) the dr, said, you had poo-poo. :(

its ok baby... Mummy understand, you cannot hold it any longer. and thank you for making it such an eassssyyy way for me :) no long hours of labor pain :) ( again though i really want natural birth for you, but we plan and Allah decide)

the Dr advised us to do caesarean since she was afraid you might swallow the poo-poo and that could distress you.

i want to have you save and sound so we decided to have the operation..
So i went to the OT around 8.30

and at 9.18 am, there,, you were born..

i still remember your first sweet beautiful face came out from tummy,,Masya Allah..
, i kissed you and say Thank to Allah.

it was definitely one of my best moments in life for mama and papa :)

we love you very much and we hope and pray you will be a good daughter, a good muslimah and be the best in everything you do!

Loves,Hugs and Kisses,
Mama

Patience is Half of Imaan

2011-04-07T00:11:00.001+10:00

As much as im excited for my little baby to come out, i know i have to be sabar kan..

Though the head should engage by now, but my lil angel still enjoying her time in my tummy, refusing to find the exit yet.. Its ok baby.. But dont stay too long k cos mummy and daddy cant wait to hold you..

The head is still not engaged and the amniotic fluid level is still high. So there's no reason to induce or force her to come out. Let her stay in my tummy for a while..

But the not so good news is my OB is currently overseas. She and I thought sempat laa baby kluar before she went there,( looking at my activities etc.) But kita merancang, Allah menentukan.. I must admit i was a bit dissapointed, but heyy,, sure ada hikmahnya kan.. Trying not to think so much on that, instead need to concentrate on my preparation (mentally, spiritually and physically) for the childbirth..

And yes im still working :) every morning, a must-ask question by the staff, almost everyone la, would be, " puan belum bersalin lagi?".. :) i prefer more cuti days with my baby, rather than staying at home waiting for the time..but though i have pretty much settled all d works, but it keeps on coming!! Well at least, it keeps me busy during the day :)

Last Fun Night Out

2011-03-30T22:39:00.003+10:00

Hey people.

Im still here with tummy of netball size ( ceceh. biase org sebut basketball, but i prefer netball :)

Working still, waiting for the D-Day while currently reading my much awaited Ina May's Guide to Childbirth Book. ( Ordered through Amazon and reached me in 3 days je ok! mind you i ordered on Friday night, received on Monday!) what a great service! Its almost thursday but Alhamdulillah, managed to finish up all the works that i planned to finish up before deliver :) and hence, the blogging too =)

Anyway, last Saturday , me and Mr went to Nurul's birthday dinner ( though my OB advised me to be near Seremban, but i never miss her bday dinner) so off we went to celebrate her night.

Was planning to pergi sekejap jer.. haaa.. kau.. we got back at wee hours and reached home almost Subuh! i have my Mr by my side all the time, so if anything happen. he can just drive me to the hospital kan

Its been ages since i was up that late. Kinda reminded me of the layback uni times, ( during holiday and weekend) .. definitely wont be able to do that anymore once the lil angel pop up from my oven :) BUt i really had fun that night ( they reminded me repeatedly not to laugh hardly as they were afraid my baby could pop out anytime!)

But what i love the most about that night, is how special it was! The fine dining was prepared by the birthday girl herself. When we receive the invitation card, i thought it was just like another makan-makan /hang out at her crib in Bangsar. But nahh.. i was totally wrong! The beautiful ambience of table setting by the pool with candles! ( It was earth hour ok!) But so cantik ok!

( this was taken from mira's twitter during prep)

and mind you, this placemat's design, menu card, was designed by Nurul herself! :)

I wish i brought my camera with me, but my iphone was all i have..

and my bad, i didnt even have the birthday girl's picture all dressed up prettily.

(only this when she was serving the food to the guests), but still she look pretty :)

And the 3-course meals menu COOKED by her was superb! ( well she was , and still is like our master chef back in Brisbane, so memang expected la sedap!)

If i was in a posh restaurant, i wouldnt be able to have extra SERVINGS and asyik tambah the lamb cutlets :) byk kali ok! ( ish.. i was really eating for two! )

Well done Nurul! and thanks for having err 'feeding' us :)

and of course, what made us stayed back that late that night was..

...board game ;) it was cranium time .

all in all, i really had fun that night, and knowing it would be the last time that i could spend time like that mcm sedey la pulak! But dont get me wrong! i really look forward to parenthood :) so that night was like a closure to both of us :) ( unless tetibe, the grannies offer to look after the baby while we are out having fun.. NAHHH... dont think so! )

so now, back to baby, pls-come-out-soon, mummy&daddy-are-waiting time :)

Of Baby Preparation

2011-03-14T15:59:00.014+10:00

The baby cot is ready ( thank you Mr )
but not the bedding set :)

Good news is I just received the fabric that i ordered online :) Yeay!

( was thinking of sewing on my own, but haiyaa,, where got time! class pun tak abes belajar :( )

But luckily i have a staff who is good at sewing :)

She is a pharmacy Assistant during d day, tailor and baker at night :)

Baby dont come out yet k. mummy wants to prepare your crib nicely first :)

As for my preparation list, well pretty much all have been thicked..except of course, baby's arrival :)

counting days for that ( o Allah, please let it be a smooth experience for me)

Mummy 's hospital bag packed, baby's bag packed, daddy's bag also packed!

( cos he will be on the move since i will do my confinement at Melaka ( insya Allah)

anyway,

Went to the antenatal class last weekend, held at Royal Bintang Hotel, Seremban.

And love the goodies that i received as well as the things that i learnt.

But sadly missed the important part of the class, ( we were late for the first half and hour of the class) which is the breathing technique during labor and the massage for the mothers ( Mr was lucky to skip this part cos he need not to massage me in front of the whole class!)

We were in time just for the antenatal and postnatal exercise. The teacher ( heheh actually the physiotherapist) made us , all of the participants to demonstrate ok! Its good, in the sense that you know that you are doing the right thing. BUt i managed to get the slide presentation so i can learn on my own at home and of course with the help of youtube search :(

Other than physio stuff, we also learn about jaundice in baby, breastfeeding, massage for the baby, preparations for labor,delivery., nutritional talk etc etc. well lots of things! Sehari rase mcm tak cukup jer.. But Alhamdulillah for the opportunity given. ( i skipped my state annual general pharmacists meeting for this ok! and not to mention, it was held at the same place!! but family always come first =) ) And the fees pun is very affordable. So i would recommend to all the mothers-to-be out there to join antenatal class. At least, rase prepared sikit . ( HOPEFULLY! ) But i dont feel as nervous as i felt before i joined the class.

So just wanna share with you , teknik bernafas / breathing technique during labor :) i could only find two videos :( :( wish we didnt miss that part of class,, but takpe la.. ade hikmahnye :)

o btw, i won a baby scrapbook! (maybe i'd just keep it for the future) for answering questions :) and of course, i asked a lot too! =) I have a whole set of questions before i even signed up for that class.

Internet and books have been great to me but why not grab the chance of asking the real person and hands-on experience kan.

Well, starting to feel nervous and excited at the same time. Cant wait for the baby to come out, but scared a bit ( not a bit la... well sikit la).

Please pray everything will go smoothly yeah. for the baby as well as the mummy!

Ameen.

Antenatal Check Up

2011-03-03T12:03:00.002+10:00

Im currently waiting for my turn to see d obstetrician for my antenatal check up. Since im bored and not to mention, ANGRY, i decided to blog. I seriously find it vvvvveeerrryyyy rude not to offer seats to pregnant ladies esp those guys who r sitting. This is my 7th check up here, and still i can see men sitting while heavily pregnant ladies are standing, haihh malaysians... ! This well-known private hospital in Seremban, ( not many choices pun of private hospital here) pun should provide more seats or at least put a sign to prioritize the pregnant ladies.

Anyway, i still remember last 2 check ups,while waiting for my ATT injection, i asked this one guy, politely for a seat, since there was an empty seat where he put his bag pack. And guess what, he pretended like i wasn't there. Not even a reply or a smile, just a blank stare. Maybe he didn't understand English. i assume. but well, its kinda obvious when i pointed out the seat!
Luckily Mr wasn't there at that particular time, kalau tak, mmg drama la! :)

By the way, remember i said something about going to private and government clinic.
pegi klinik kerajaan for check up ke or pergi private hospital?

My humble honest opinion is i prefer government clinic much much better. I did check up at private with my first pregnancy in KL and this pregnancy in Seremban. And this time, im doing my check up at my own gov health clinic as well ( maybe there's a bias here since i am a staff, and i dont have to wait at the waiting area, since i have my own office to do my work while waiting :) )

But that doesn't change the fact about the check up that they do in general. Where the midwives will check you from head to toe!! Everytime pergi check mcm segan la.. they check kaki la.. perut la.. check semua la! Baby heart beat and position is a must la kan... using doppler set and ukur2 manual :) Then with other routine check ups which include blood test, urine test, dental check up! The counseling and talks that they give. One whole complete set! ( maybe lame sikit la nk tunggu... ) but its for your own well-being! And I can assure you the cleanliness and the sterility of the instruments/bekas used is assured. takde gune2 balik ke ape. Sekali bukak terus buang.

Compared to the private, where i noticed that they are using the same bekas again and again ( sharing too!) well to reduce cost is one of the factor. so understood la.But still, err.. need not to elaborate on that more.

But the reason that im going to the private , is because im planning to deliver there ( for the comfort purpose :), insya Allah) as well as the doc, the obstetrician. I want a lady doctor, and Alhamdulillah, my dr now is a Muslim lady doctor and she is the consultant for one of the baby magazine. So far, she's ok.. very lembut and menenangkan :) . ( cant say much yet since i havent delivered yet!) But from all the check ups, she mmg really nice la!! Cos i was doctor-shopping before i found her ;) And another advantage of private check up is of course, the 3D and 4D scan. But the waiting time... haihhh...kalah government clinic ok!

But i would say, if you cud go to both, you SHOULD! Make time for the government clinic or hospital check up. ( not sure about hospital though but shud be the same!) With your blood test done routinely, you'd know about your haemoglobin level and other levels. In private, they only do urine test. I think jarang kot blood test. ( see,,, how much the government spend for us. tak masuk lagi ubat ye puan-puan.. check up tu , all the brg2.. i know the price since i m the one who did the order for the clinic too..tak murah ok! )

i have no political interest in whichever party..im not into politic pun. But im just saying from what i observe. i work in the health sector and i must say, goverment bykkkk sgt tolong rakyat in terms of the health care ok. In developed countries, they subsidise ,they dont give medicine for free and the subsidize pun based on their income. Unlike us in Malaysia, tak kesah berapa byk income or takde income pun, the treatment and medicine are FREE! well bayar singgit je! so i consider that free la! compared to the real cost of treatment and drugs. so please dont complain much. eh takde kaitan. but i get very stressed and tired of all the complaints!! you can afford to go overseas selalu to visit your children who are living there, but you dont want to buy vitamin supplements! and insist us to supply to you! i get a LOT of patients mcm ni ok.

well back to the point, do your antenatal check up at both private and clinic if you could. If not, government alone pun dah enough. I get to 'meet' my baby every month ( now every 2 weeks) at both private and gov clinic. Its just the ultrasound machine kat government tak secanggih private la. But well, if you just wanna know whether your baby is doing fine and healthy, gov scan machine will do. The canggih2 machine kalau nak tau in detail and of course, the face etc.
Here's my both check-up cards put together in FashionValet 'bag'. I was looking for a small folder to put all the records and this is handy. it fits nicely :) It is advisable to bring these records anywhere you go , in case if anything happen to you. so ill just chuck everything in this folder :)

Of Work Again

2011-02-23T12:42:00.002+10:00

Just when im rushing to finish up my work , since im already in my 3rd trimester..

i got a call, asking me to give a talk tomorrow!! 1 day notice!! $@#*^

i wish i can say no.

i love my job, i do, but sometimes the workload is too much for me to handle.
Like i said, i prefer seeing the patients rather than stuck in my desk doing paperworks!

I think it will be ok if there are at least 3 same grade pharmacists in this health clinic.

But im only one person ( maybe 2 with a baby inside tummy)

Today i am really not in the mood. because i am so tired..

but of course, you gonna keep on smiling!!

IF you enter my office, you would suprise to see piling documents, papers on my table.

I tried to kemas everyday and it will end up like this jugak.

i know i know, need to reogranize again and again!

and besides this view, of course, Cannon in D major playing loudly!

classical music and disney music is a must today. i dont care la what my staff say. i need my time.

Coffee Rambling

2011-02-20T17:38:00.000+10:00

I know its not healthy to have my coffee during pregnancy. Ive been off from coffee for more than eight months now, so this one complimentary cup of mocha is forgivable la kan ( since i WAS a coffee addict during my student days. Cant miss a day without a cup of coffee, sometimes more!)

Anyway, im currently at MST golf complex, bored waiting for Mr shopping for golf clubs and equipments. Hence the blogging, after reading few short stories from my phone apps. And luckily they provide a nice spot for the waiting wives :)

Actually im supposed to be in Sabah at the moment for Zara and Farish's wedding. Air tickets booked, hotel room reserved, plans made but i forgot ( well buat2 tak ingat) the flight's condition for pregnant ladies. haha trying to ignore the possibility of not being permitted to fly :( But well, tummy cant be hidden, and risk cant be taken, so here i am still on the peninsular island of Malaysia. Been following the solemnization with Twitter and whats app! wish could facetime but most of my good friends are BB users. so cannot facetime la. * but still thank god for the technology* The nikah dais and facing seaview nikah hall ! Its like my dream nikah :) I always have a thing with water, be it sea, river or even pool! takpe la, at least, the minute i was officially Mr's girlfriend was besides the Brisbane river :) so thats enough for me. Wish i was there for the reception too! Most of them said its one of the best wedding receptions ever! with the big reunion of brisbane ppl :(. With rendition of Kings of Leon's Use Somebody on air when she walked down the aisle.

*sigh* well its ok.

For my baby in tummy. mummy pray from far ok for Auntie Zara and Uncle Farish. :)

ok can see Mr coming now.. o with new Titleist D2 driver in hand, smiling widely as if he's the happiest man alive!!!ish.. men cant be trusted to shop alone in golf shop!

One of my favourite things..

2011-02-06T14:50:00.012+10:00

I am the type who love scrap-booking so much!! Ever since i was in primary school, i like to cut and paste pictures and put them in an album and scribble anything.

Even when i don't have a proper scrapbook album, i like to collects small/big things like movie or concert tickets, my drawings, my friends' drawings or scribles, any,
anything that i cherish, and paste them on a nice book.I have one each for my sekolah rendah, highschool, college and uni time. ( the funniest wud be during KDU time, the things that me and housemates scribbled, i laughed everytime i read the book! definitely for our eyes only!) i even did one just for my wedding, all the sketches etc. But it wasn't a proper scrapbook. but never mind. at least, there's something.

I still remember my first scrapbook album was given by my mum, bought in Tokyo. It was pretty new to me at that time, to have those stickers and tags etc. But being a primary school kid, i loves the album so much! i get to play with scissors and glue :) i spent my after-UPSR leisure time, doing the album! So that album was specifically for my childhood pictures of birthday celebrations, travel, etc . as well as my sekolah rendah memories.

As for SSPKL time,my high school good friend, Jijie gave me another album for my 16th birthday! O my Seri Puteri nye collection paling banyak k! Albums and books! ooh i miss those care-free times! i even kept my warning letter from warden and principal :)

And the third scrapbook album of Brisbane was a farewell gift from my dear good friend, ILI!! She knows me too well!So she bought me a very pretty scrapbook with so many nice coloured papers and again stickers. I still havent finished doing the scrapbook, trying to find time whenever i can.

i wish i cud share with my blog, all the scrapbook that i have, but its sealed in my memory box back in my room, in Melaka :)
so no pictures for that :( maybe during pantang, when i have nothing to do! yeah right :)

And yesterday, i met Zara for lunch in Paviliion, and she gave me this!

She bought this during her recent visit back to Australia. and im loving the keepsake book so much! its for the little baby inside! :) But i really love whats inside! the tiny details like the baby first kick, what mummy and daddy feels , first ultrasound ..things like that.

Mummy will fill it up for your keep in the future k.

Anyway, i ve been getting few requests to upload my pregnancy pics :) cehh macam ape je.. but well, i gained so much weight ok! sgt byk, i MIGHT be heavier than Mr.
But well, here's me at almost 8 months :) with Zara who's getting married next week!

takpe, sy berazam untuk start kuruskan badan selepas pantang nnt. well, we'll see. i have been wishing for that since i was 16! tp tak kurus2 jugak! hahaha.

Get Well Soon & Congratulations

2011-01-22T21:49:00.005+10:00

Its been a week.. 7 days since i had the fever and yes i still have it.

Done my blood check up, ( Alhamdulillah, all levels are ok including WBC) , MGTT ( takde kaitan, but yeay no diabetes! ) even did HbA1c test at my clinic, as requested by my obstetrician in private hosp :) I'd rather do the full check up at my own gov clinic than the private. i'd tell u that in my next post ( tah bile tah tu..but i have my own strong reasons!)

ok back to my point, Mr and Me are having the bug! Both of us are down with fever still :( and though i had my MC last week,i still dragged myself to work cos again, piling works and a need of a pharmacist at the clinic :( ( at this point of time, i wish i work in a big hospital!) and now,here we are, stuck in our humble house in Seremban,doing nothing during weekend, ( though we r supposed to have a 1 year old bday party to attend in PJ, but sorry Sarah! and missed another baby warehouse sale in Subang!)

btw actually this post is to congratulate my good friend, Nurul and her sisters on the opening of their new Mimpikita boutique in Bangsar and the launching of their in-house labels, Kmeja & Rekakita. As well as heartiest congratulations to Tupak , Ili and Farish as the designers for Kmeja. o how i wish i could could attend the event. You know i badly wanted to be there.. but well, stuck in Seremban with fever and work didnt do me any better.

But i actually cried looking at the video! so sweet of you,Nurul to mention my name in your welcoming speech! I dont know whether its the pregnancy hormones or what, but i easily cry nowadays! haha.

but so proud of you Nurul & Mira! and Syera too!

Things will never be the same again..

2011-01-17T07:05:00.002+10:00

The past 2 weeks have been cruel to me, my mum was admittd in hospital for a week n we even celebrated her birthday there :(

Alhamdulillah she's getting better now. But dad is not well pulak :( pls pray for him..

And my beloved home away from home , Brisbane was hit by major flood. I couldnt really concentrate on my works as i ws reading updates frm twittr n fb. I even cried looking at d pics cos i used to live at the same old plce for 5 years. And it was quite devastating to see my once beautiful place has become like a dead lake or sea!

( this is the field where me and mr met)

My much loved university ws pretty much submerged :(

Wonder whether will it be d same when i bring my lil child to see the place where mummy n daddy met :( ( this is what the title is about!) Brisbane wont be the same again...

This video enough to make me cry a tear :( all the familar places, everyday places..

Thank God, i listened to my dad when he insisted me coming back home to work despite the job offer i received back in Brisbane.( though was so reluctant!)

But now,with both parents are not well.. current flood in Queensland, Alhamdulillah, i am here, home with them today. Thank you Ayah! And thank Allah for not making me a stubborn girl who didnt listen to his daddy! :)

And now, im down with high fever last weekend.. On bed pretty much all the time. Still not recovering.

Had to miss my good friend's bridal shower weekend and cancel my own baby shower. ( since all of us are in KL now)
but so sweeet of you girls to think of having one for me.. Thank you Nurul

i miss these girls :(

And so sorry to miss your night Zara. Definitely will fly to Sabah once i get permission letter from my obstrectician. ( pics taken from heralbum :)

Im sick still today but couldnt take MC. No one in the pharmacy. And they need at least one pharmacist in, since our methadone clinic has started. Not to mention, so many problems to settle. reports to submit and escalating demanding patients increasing DAILY! haihh.. cant wait for April for my long 3 monhts holiday! err maternity leave actually. ( hehe but my big boss already warned me not to off my hp!) And yeah. one more thing banjir in my own pharmacy pluys SUMMER! it has always been winter , but since the aircond rosak and the roof and pipes bocor or sumthing.. haihh.. new building i mind you! nice from outside, inside broken! ish.

Pls pls Allah let life be better coming few days... i need sunshine pls.! o i have mine in my tummy kicking, Thank you Allah.. but less problems pls.

Cooking

2011-01-02T18:30:00.001+10:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

guess how i celebrated my new year this year. ..

Just Me and Mr with our cup of hot chocolate sitting on the couch watching TV :)

yeah, i feel old. But im done celebrating outside back in younger years.. ( i miss those times with my girlfriends very much, well i miss my girlfriends. not the celebrations :) )

Anyway, Just a random post on first month of the year.

our meal for today.

Do notice that im actually using my WEDDING CARDS as the coasters for the lauk2 and jug!!
the cawan ones are too small to put things on it. i dont know wat they call it, but i just call coasters.
alas letak lauk ..haa..kan senang!

berguna jugak kan kad kahwin extraku ini :)

we havent bought our dining table yet :) hehe.. so sementara berdua eh bertiga dlm perut ini, we just use our coffee table for makan.

Forgivable la, baru setahun kahwin dan 2 years keje and baby on the way, so house is not fully furnished yet :) Ade yg basic and important dulu :)
But dunno, why we bought the coffee table instead of dining?? err..baru terfikir lak.

Anyway one of my resolutions for next year err this year is:

to learn more and more recipes to cook!
( good thing of living in Seremban, you dont have much things to do, people to meet, and you tend to explore the world of cooking :) )

Like seriously, i dont feel like eating outside at all. even after work, i prefer to cook. ceceh.. not that im a good cook! ( my god.., my hsmates back in brisbane or even my family would laugh if they read this post because cooking was never my thing before!)

but i guess people change ;)

365 ++ days of married us

2010-12-25T15:12:00.003+10:00

I never really tell my blog ( even my own diary) how i met my mr as well as the wedding pics.

Was busy time this month last year with HKL and d wedding..

Since its our month of annivessary, and who knows this lil angel might get to read this when lil baby grows up, and only Allah knows i'd still be alive to tell the story :)

So, Dear Baby in tummy...

Mummy and daddy was what they called love at first sight :) As claimed by Mr ( kalau betul la!), and secretly by me ( now making it public!) . It was back in the year of 2006, ( nada how i met your mother, :) ) at the soccer field, when the QLD Malaysian team was playing against the Indo. Daddy was a new kid in Brisbane town, so he actually caught my attention with his looks?! err height and talents on soccer field :) ( i guess another huge factor is because a friend of ours, Tupak told me that daddy was from SMAPLabu! )
But obviously mummy wont make any move.I just keep everything to myself, except of course to my three lovely girlfriends/housemates at that time.. Plus, i wasnt really looking for love sgt ( eceh.. ye la tu! sibuk bising single but had great single time back in Brisbane!) and it totally against my way, to make a move on a guy

.Little that i know, i didnt expect that Daddy had a thing for me too! :)
So one day, everything changed when i received an SMS, i still remember i was in UQ Lab with Sue and Mei Leng, doing some drug experiments. Sue said i was glowing and smiling whole day! The SMS was totally OLD SCHOOL way of nak berkenalan way ok! ( i'd keep that to myself! well.. who actually send sms nak kawan when not many malaysians pun in brisbane kan! everybody is everyone's friends! ) and ditambah dengan 'kirim-kirim salam' by his friends well my friends too! ( cos at that time, in Brisbane there were not many Malay Malaysians there, so basically we have the same circle of friends. )

So i would say, it was a typical Malaysian way of berkenalan but in Queensland, Australia :)

So that was how we started..

and after that of course,like other couples in the world, we have our ups and downs but we made it through and right at 3.43 pm on this date last year, i was officially his beloved wife, with one lafaz :)

and now im having you in my tummy.,,

We are two totally different persons on earth! TOTALLY! Ask our friends, they would agree, like ABSOLUTELY! We like different kind of musics, different genre of drama/films, different taste of food, hobbies etc. etc. The only things that we have in common is maybe.. err SPORTS! ( both of us love sports esp on fields or TV, i used to play sports, he plays sports still. i can watch rugby,soccer,cricket anything and currently golf ;) ) , How I Met Your Mother!!( yeay, berjaya menarik him to watch it, so can spend the whole weekends watching re-run f HIMYM together on the couch! , and of course other sitcoms too like Everybody Loves Raymond, Criminal Minds and CSI?!. Well err i guess thats everyone's favourite. But i managed to drag him to watch Oprah too nowadays! :) hehe.

but well my point is, the only thing that we share is LOVE! and thats you, my baby :)

SO despite the differences that we have, we will do our best as we could to raise you well and shower you with much loves! Even you are now kicking and most of the time sleeping inside me, i love you so much baby!

loves,

mummy :)

Here's a video of us, just for my keep on the net =)

Sessi Kaunseling

2010-12-24T07:41:00.002+10:00

I arrived at the clinic around 6.45am this morning as Mr has golf tournament and the tee off was around 7 am! Since no one is here YET, so i turned on all the TVs in clinic loudly and yup. im bloggin now , not to think of anything spooky :) haha.

Mr actually asked the female guard to borak with me to teman2 me just now!

Anyway yesterday, I counseled an old Malay couple who i find them very sweet! its rare to see old malay couple holding hands and the husband was soo loving and sangat caring and concern about the medication of his wife.
btw,

The wife's glucose level has risen up and the doctor has prescribed insulin injection for her. So my duty was to educate both of them on the diabetes management as well as the medication. But most importantly, i have to teach them how to use the pen. ( fyi, the gov is giving free insulin pen ok for the diabetes pts, and each pen cost $200+. so dont complain much about the gov! not to mention all the meds are free! even the expensive one!) sgt tak berkaitan ok.

ok so this makcik is really afraid of jarum, though the jarum is really pendek ok and tak menakutkan langsung compared to the needle they used to draw the blood! this is just like a prick of needle je but u have to do it every night. So its the pakcik yang meng'calm down'kan the makcik.. and of course, i did my part as well la.

so when i come to the part asking who's going to inject and which area, ( cos there are some particular areas that you can inject and if u r going to inject yourself, certain area might be convenient for you) ,

the pakcik was like.

"abang buat kan ya. tapi awak kena tahu juga tau, sbb nanti saya takda, siapa nak buat.
anak-anak nanti sibuk"

i feel like crying ok at that time at that place at that minute..

the pakcik listened to me intently as i explained about the medications and injection and he demonstrated the technique well. same goes to the makcik, but seeing how they discuss things, pujuk and talk to each other, asking questions..memang definitely tip-top communication!

they are such a loving couple, even at that age.

note to mr : take care of me like that ok!

o btw, tomorrow we will be celebrating our first anniversary of married couple :) and guess what im doing tomorrow?

. DISPENSING METHADONE TO THE DRUG ADDICTS :(

on my anniversary and christmas day!

(i have no choice since most of my other pharmacist colleagues are celebrating christmas so cannot swap la)

But sorry Mr, we'll make it up at night ok!

Broken credit card

2010-12-19T21:21:00.002+10:00

December is really the month to shop!
Ive been doing a lot of shopping lately ,sadly but well tomorrow will be d payday :) or is it today?

Nevermind,
Since i dont really have time to go out shopping except for the baby warehouse sale! ( anything for the baby is an exclusion) ,sanggup berhimpit,beratur & berebut for the baby ok.

I have been spending most of the time and money, online :(

I really need new clothes as the old ones dont fit anymore! but Thank God some of the winter clothes that i bought in Aussie ages ago, still can be used! Luckily i dig my old boxes delivered from Oz and i found a few that can be used as maternity wear :)

So i have been looking for maxi dresses cause i guess thats the only style that suit me at the moment. Been wearing maternity pants n blouses for work so i need maxis for d weekend! And it was soooo hard to find one my size here in Msia! Bought a few online but they were too short or too tight! Yg dkt malls, lagi la.. It'd be at my ankle length! Nak tempah, mcm takut tak sempat.

So mmg need to shop online overseas.

I definitely miss shopping for wardrobe in Ozzie.

So this final week's order:

Besides unpatiently waiting for the scarves that bought online ,will be delivered soon from UK ( snow pls clear up fast!)

Tops bought from Fashionvalet, i must say they have nice and variety of collection. This wont take long i guess. Hopefully it fits :)

Last but not the least, the ones that memang cant wait to have!

Bought few dresses on Supre online, already delivered to a friend's place in Chermside, she'll be back here by new year!

o how i wish i could wear this! if i buy this, this wud definitely make my body WIDER and BROADER!

Anyway,

The maxi dresses are much cheaper there esp those on SALE! I wish someone in Aussie who has free time wouldn't mind doing side business of buying maxi dresses there, sell it online and post them here to Malaysia :) please..

First Kick

2010-11-14T17:16:00.002+10:00

It was after Subuh prayer on Sunday morning..

me and mr were resting still when suddenly, i feel a slight kick from inside.
I was certain it wasnt just angin or the sounds that my stomach always make..

it was....... my baby in tummy :)

and i smiled..

that was one of the greatest feeling, the first kick of the baby growing in your tummy. ...
( i had miscarriage with my first pregnancy so i was very worried with this pregnancy..but when there's a kick, few kicks , it was a bit of relief. but still have to be caution and pray the whole journey will sail smoothly..ameen)

Alhamdulillah .

Thank you Allah.

Work complaint.

2010-11-06T03:17:00.002+10:00

I must say, THANK YOU when 'kenaikan pangkat' dipercepatkan for the doctors, dentists and pharmacists..

but in return... we definitely receive MORE WORKS!! like seriously. they are opening methadone clinics in all klinik kesihatan and hospitals . Pharmacists are the only ones entitled and licensed to dispense the methadone to the drug addicts and can you imagine working 7 days a week!!( cos we have to directly observe them taking the medicine!) Luckily, i already have another pharmacist with me, so we could take turn! so like, i only have cuti every other weekend! ( o yeah. that doesnt include working on weekend for the drive-through services or extended services at other klinik kesihatan) Looks like no weekend at all :(

Ermm... with tuberculosis clinic as well as HIV clinics and other services that were suggested by the top people.. sometimes i wonder whether they realize or not , that we are still human. not robots. Though, i must say i have nothing to object about the pay,but i'm more concern of the 'family time'. Whats the use of high medical critical allowances if you cannot spend time with your loved ones! Well, what to do, have to menurut perintah :) This is sometimes one of the reasons i miss working in Australia. But hey dont get me wrong, im honored to serve the people and the country :)

Nevertheless, i still love my job. I just wish the ministry/ division could evenly distribute the workload.. having the right service at the right time with the right amount of people and environment... Yes i know. its our duty but with the current condition of my clinic ?! i have already brought up to the meeting about my clinic's lack of staff and facility to cater the drug addicts, but my small voice was unheard :( the top people want ALL CLINICS so be it! without considering about the capabilities.

ps. at least the doctors get paid a lot for the on-call or extra hours. The pharmacist could only get 'time-off'. But its not easy to claim the time off since you have so many works :( Errm, maybe i should fight for the pay too ;)
O yeah. i have been going to a number of antibiotic and anti-infective symposiums and seminars lately, and i wonder whether my baby in my tummy have 'familiarised' with the drug names already ;) pity baby! hope its not too much for your developing brain :)

But im loving this seminar sponsored by a drug company so much! A nice cosy hotel room with a number of freebies, great food and a plenty of free time! i wish could stay and work like this forever :)

A note of thanks.

2010-10-26T11:28:00.004+10:00

Had a movie night with the nieces on weekend
(watched Magika for birthday!!! anything for the kids.. hahah..but two thumbs up for Edry's)

then breakfast birthday with the family ( had my day off yesterday on my birthday)

and afterward, a birthday date with Mr. :)

Unlike the previous celebrations, this year was a simple but meaningful one ;)

Im more than thankful to Allah,for the greatest gift from God, whom i pray is doing well in my tummy for another 4-5 months! Alhamdulillah.

Thank you so much for those who remembered my birthday on the day!! seriously thank you!!
i have deactivated my Facebook account so no more reminder for people,
but im touched and surprised by all the wishes and calls! which i didn't expect at all. even a friend from the kindergarten!! how can she still remember my date!

its amazing how a simple wish can make your day tau!

THANK YOU SO MUCH~

especially to you Mr.
I LOVE YOU!

Not So Eid Post

2010-09-13T16:39:00.005+10:00

Im at work currently and yes, im lazying around, pretending to ignore the piling work and stay at the counter waiting for the patients to come, while reading 'curi2' the newspaper!

( hey its still raya and i even find it soo hard to find a place for breakfast and lunch ok!)

anyway, i couldnt stop myself from shedding a tear when reading today's newspaper.
As im sure everyone of you know, the big news about the murder of the multi-millionaire and her colleagues.

I felt so sad for the family especially when its someone that you know of.. Mr is a very good friend of the family member of the young malay lawyer and its such a waste, BIG WASTE to be murdered that way, at that young age when he has so much potential to go further .. He is such a successful young malay lawyer and im feeling sorry for the family. I havent had the heart to send takziah to the family cos they are still in a shock and denial state. i couldnt even find any comforting words cos i seriously dont know what to say. except for prayers for the family to be strong.

But this makes me wonder, anything could happen to anyone anywhere..

Love and treasure your loved ones while they are still here.

and i hope its still not too late to wish all of you

Eid Mubarak and

Sorry for any wrongdoings. really meant it from the bottom of my heart ;)

mind the tiredness on my face. .
morning in segamat, evening in melaka :)

Lazy Saturday Arvo

2010-08-28T16:51:00.000+10:00

Suddenly the aussie slang!

well,

i envy those in Brisbane now.. well, though the crowd aint the same anymore, but

South Bank will have its own MAX BRENNER! ( no need to go to Melbourne for that anymore!)

and i just found out that my uni has SUBWAY and BOOST JUICE in the cafeteria!
i noticed the pic of my friend holding COLD ROCK ice cream cup , but forgot to confirm about that!

But talking about food now made me wanna puke! oops im sorry

but seriously, have been losing BIG appetite lately and lost some weight ( at least a smiley to that!) but not that noticable though, sadly! cos i need a big junk of fat to be removed!

and yeah, haven't bought or ordered ( mmg dah lambat sgt laa kan!) my baju raya YET! as well as hubby's! and mother has been nagging about that.. my first raya as a wife ..blah..blah..blah..
i know mummy..but both of us were to0 focused on the house preparation , that we actually forgotten our baju raya! but ordered kuih raya etc already ( lucky to have staff that are good in baking!)

but will do last minute shopping on my final week of Ramadhan. ( the only time i get my cuti raya!) sadly,ill back to work on my 3rd day of raya!

Forgive and Forget.

2010-08-25T17:46:00.003+10:00

its easier said huh,

but

How do you forgive and forget?

I can always forgive and sometimes even forget..

but there'a always one thing or two maybe
that i can forgive, but never forget.

mind to share with me, how do you guys forget?

because i seriously want it off my mind.

Health and medicine related stuff that dont and do break your fast :)

2010-08-23T10:32:00.015+10:00

Since the head doctor of my clinic has asked me to do a poster or pamhplet on what medications/ medical device/procedure can be taken or what cannot during this holy month of Ramadhan, i was thinking why not I might as well share it with the readers can. I know dah half a month dah almost.

And since my reference is from JAKIM, and its in Malay, and the poster that i had to do was in Malay, so i'd just copy and paste ok of what i did :

Perkara –perkara yang berkaitan dengan rawatan perubatan yang tidak membatal puasa ialah :

i) Menggunakan ubat titis mata, titis telinga dan cucian telinga

(dengan syarat tidak sampai batas gegendang telinga);

yes, eye drops, ear drops can still be used while fasting :)

ii) Pil tablet nitrogylcerin (GTN) atau ubat yang menyamainya yang diambil secara meletakkannya di bawah lidah tanpa ditelan bagi merawat kesakitan dada ( angina pectoris) bagi pesakit jantung.

and putting tablet under your tongue dont break your fast

iii) Melakukan prosedur tampalan gigi, cabutan, pembersihan gigi atau memberus gigi dengan syarat individu berpuasa tidak menelan apa-apa bahan semasa prosedur rawatan tersebut.

i never knew this, then i could go to my dentist during fasting month :)

iv) Semua bentuk suntikan sama ada melalui lapisan kulit, oto m sendi atau salur darah;

for example : diabetes patients who are on insulin injection

v) Pendermaan atau pemindahan darah

yes, you can donate or transfuse your blood

vi) Penggunaan ubat-ubatan dalam bentuk sapuan, balutan dan plaster pada permukaan kulit;

this is quite obvious, plaster and cream mmg boleh la kan

vii) Pengambilan sampel darah untuk ujian makmal;

viii) Memasukkan tiub kecil ( catherer) melalui salur darah untuk tujuan pemeriksaan seperti prosedur angiogram untuk pemeriksaan jantung;

ix) Pemeriksaan laparoscopy, iaitu pemeriksaan dalaman dengan menggunakan alat yang dimasukkan melalui dinding abdomen untuk pemeriksaan bahagian dalaman pesakit;

x) Berkumur-kumur termasuk berkumur-kumur secara gargle ( sehingga air hampir ke tekak), dan ubat terapeutik semburan ke mulut yang tidak melibatkan proses menelan;

gargle also cann... but i think makruh kan :)

xi) Menjalankan biopsy iaitu pemgambilan specimen atau cebisan yang diambil daripada hati atau organ-organ lain untuk tujuan analisa makmal

xii) Penggunaan ubat seburan ( spray) hidung tanpa disedut;
as well as nasal spray. but not to be inhaled.

xiii) Rawatan dialysis untuk masalah pesakit buah pinggang sama ada hemodialisis atau peritonealdialisis;

xiv) Menjalani rawatan bius setempat atau separuh ( local) dengan semburan atau suntikan setempat; dan

xv) Penggunaan ubat buasir dengan memasukkan semula kawasan buasir pada tempatnya tanpa melibatkan kawasan rongga yang dalam.

And these are the things that will break your fast :

Perkara-perkara berkaitan dengan rawatan perubatan yang membatalkan puasa:

i) Penggunaan alat sedutan ( inhaler) untuk rawatan lelah ( asthma) atau penyakit paru-paru kronik;

im sorry asthma or COPD patient, if you use the inhaler, you cannot fast :(

ii) Memasukkan sebarang tiub kecil ( pessary) atau ubat ke dalam faraj ( vaginal
suppository) termasuk prosedur cucian ( wash), pemeriksaan dalaman vaginal ( vaginoscope) atau pegawai perubatan memasukkan jari untuk melakukan pemeriksaan dalaman vagina wanita;

i guess pessary and suppository is pretty obvious :)

iii) Memasukkan sebarang tiub catherer; alat pemeriksaan dalam saluran kencing ( uresthroscope), barium atau ubat pencuci yang dimasukkan sama ada ke dalam saluran kencing bagi lelaki atau wanita ( contohnya memasukkan ‘urinary catheter’ untuk rawatan sumbatan salur kencing);

iv) Penggunaan alat seperti enema, tiub suppository, teropong protoscope atau jari pegawai perubatan yang dimasukkan ke dalam dubur atau rectum untuk pemeriksaan

v) Pengunaan teropong usus ( endoscope) atau teropong perut ( gasteroscope) untuk tujuan pemeriksaan sistem penghadaman

vi) Penggunaan bius menyeluruh melibatkan penggunaan gas

I guess thats all for today :) its pretty lengthy huh :)

Ramadhan Kareem

2010-08-19T14:30:00.007+10:00

Its been more than a week of Ramadhan, Alhamdulillah and suddenly teringat my first year in Brisbane..

This is my partner in 'crime' back in 2004, who is currently happily married to a pious canadian man and living in Montreal.

We were like a-must-see-faces-at-any-iftaar-events!! be it at malaysians' , sporeans', bruneians', indians' arabs', australians' , indonesians' events ..any berbuka puasa event la!

since both of us were so young that time ( yeay right!), and err not so expert in cooking :), tak pandai masak pun time tu! So apart from going to invitations from malaysian phd students who were kind enough to invite both of us , or australian muslim friends whose mothers love to cook, or mosque hopping or menumpang makanan petronas students who were at times dpt food yg sgt sedap!, we'd go to any iftaar events at the musollah almost everyday!

Like she said, the duo, memang ada rasa segan, but when there were two of you, kurang sikit la kan :)

But mmg agak rindu rasa berpuasa di perantauan... like the very rindu ok~

the iftaar, the taraweeh ( different sounds and ways of recitations)

and the food, of course, we got to taste diffferent kind of food everyday ;)

anyway, hope its not too late to wish all of you

happy fasting and beribadah during this holy month of Ramadhan!

please forgive me for any wrongdoings , yg sengaja atau tidak.

breakdown?

2010-08-05T22:36:00.008+10:00

Have you ever felt so angry , that all you could do is cry?

Thats how i felt today. Gosh, with current unstable emotions ( maybe the hormones =() , and lots of works.. i was so mad with one of my staff. But I couldnt even raise my voice!! ( memang la tegur tp mmg sangat tak sampai hati nak tinggi suara.. tahan je ok!) But i guess she knew that i was soooooo angry! and yes people, the best that i could do, was to cry during lunch time!

Dengan big event tomorrow at my clinic, people to invite, cards to send, letters to draft, on top of so many reports to submit this week, and wayy due 'drug ordering'.. I had to do all alone and i expect my staff know the jobs that have been assigned to them... So today, when I asked one of my staff, for the summary that i need, and when i checked her work, I WAS SOOOO MAD! cause all she did was nothing!! ( she did things but repetitive and non-sense things) And i had to do ALL OVER AGAIN ( bertambah lagi keje aku ok!) cos i need the figures urgently!

Its not the first time that she did this. Dah banyak kali but tak sampai hati to report, cos she's going to retire soon..and thinking that she' around my MIL's age.. She is fine but when it comes to works... hermmm....

I dont know whether i could be a good leader or not... because when usually i want something to be my way ,i'd end up doing it myself! Alhamdulillah, my other staff was alrite! Thank God for her and she bakes cakes too :) and sew clothes too
( IAllah, will be learning how to menjahit baju from her soon,, during fasting month =) )

well, i guess im still in my learning process in managing this place especially the people...

im sure there will be more to come!

but honestly, everything is better after you cry =)

My Friday Lunch Break Post from the office!

2010-07-30T12:46:00.006+10:00

with my own broadband, with my own laptop and while having short rest from supposedly 3 hours friday lunch!

Had a short break from work by going to a course in Genting. ( well at least i get to spend some time at the mushroom and strawberry farm :) )

its a self-pick farm :) i guess most strawberry farms are! but nice environment they have there.

the mushroom farm is totally different from the farm that i used to work in while i was in Aussie! diff kind of mushroom but that doesn't mean cleanliness is less important :) my place was much cleaner of course :)

But i really feel old as i didnt feel like joining the younger colleagues to go up to the park and entertainment area. I guess too hectic and noisy for me! haha.

BUT nightmares came real when i got back from Genting. I left my pharmacy for few days and when i got back, as i expected.. more works on my desk!! And to my horror, on my first day of work, back from the course ( oo yeah, i didnt get any cuti ( off) mind you!) i received a visit from the BIG BOSS, the state director of pharmacy!! My other boss called me that they will be arriving in 5 minutes! But Alhamdulillah, everything was fine and received a few compliments :) hehe. But there's still room of improvement need to be done! But we are lacking of manpower and time of course.

O yeah. my job scope has widening as usual.. Apart from taking care of the assets ( which is supposed to be an asset officer's job), handling the store items ( store keeper's job), i am now given the job of clerk AS WELL! i have to draft letters, invitation cards etc. And its definitely not just for the pharmacy, its for the whole clinic!! On top of my work as a pharmacist who supposedly to solely manage the pharmacy, dispense medications and advice both patients and doctors about the drugs.

i never had time to have my lunch anymore ( except for mcdonald delivery!) and i never punch out at 5.00 pm sharp anymore!

well, who says goverment workers masuk kerja lambat, balik awal, lunch and break lama!

because I seriously never had the chance to do that!!!

o well, maybe its just my job :(

o yes, im oncall again tomorrow at another clinic! but at least, i have ili's engagement to look forward to and meeting my dear girlfriends this weekend.

One Gigantic Gift :)

2010-07-22T21:55:00.003+10:00

ok the title was a bit exaggerating :)

Hi House,

Thank you so much, Mr!!

not just because you bought me a small yet, cosy house, but like seriously, not just about this..
but for being a great husband :) ( this post is definitely a P.D.A, so bear with me ) He may not be romantic at all! He may seems like he couldn't care less. I never receive flowers or any romantic gestures ie candle light dinner, or dancing in the moonlight! ( so much influenced by the romantic movies)
After all that we have been through. the ups and downs before the marriage, the never ending fights that we used to have, the sacrifices that we both had to make and the changes that you and I had.

Im really glad that you are the one..

the one that i can always count on, the one that will always be there when i need him, the one who will be my forever companion, Insya Allah.
( pic was taken back in 2006)

i love you Mr.. truly

now have to think of ideas for decorations, on top of the works that never get end.
but i'd prioritise my housewife duty :) thats my no. 1 dream!

Weekly Schedule Updated

2010-07-13T23:29:00.009+10:00

Me on my,

week 3 of June : Had extended hour oncall at another clinic
Need to go to a kampung in N9, for an awareness program to the makciks
and pakciks about quality use of medicine

week 4 of June : Another extended hour oncall at ANOTHER clinic

week 1 of July : Symposium on newly launced cough medicine.

week 2 of July : Seminar on Role of Pharmacist in Judicious Use of Antibiotic

(which is like tomorrow, but i really looking forward to hear and learn about this )

week 3 of July : 2 days Kursus on 'Dispensing and Counseling of Methadone '

week 4 of July : another 2 days course for drug procurement for clinic system

week 1 of Aug : back to another oncall at another clinic :(

and the cycles goes on and on...
and my works at my own pharmacy is piling up. ( add up to the fussy patient who complained about the shortage of drugs in my pharmacy and another patient who shouted loudly at me, as he was impatient, hot-tempered and refused to listen to any explanations about a procedure ) *sigh*

well, who says you will stop learning when you finish studying in uni..

its definitely an ongoing process for life!
except after uni, you have no more semester breaks or holidays :(

but still, i love my job :) ( apart from the fussy and bad-tempered patients ,of course!)

Aku Merinduimu

2010-06-27T22:07:00.002+10:00

taken from mia's pic.

Gosh, i really miss this city.
Can i please put work on hold and go back to this place, once i called home.

ish, nak dpt cuti satu hari pun susah, ni nak cuti 2 weeks.. at least.

If i was to quit work now, i had to pay the ministry rm50k. So at least need to work for another 3 years! And mr is also getting busy and busier by minutes! O how i wish, he could expand his business to Brisbane, and i would be happily volunteer to be a fulltime housewife there :)

will update about the weekends later.

The Long and Winding Road, err Post ;) sorry beatles.

2010-06-19T20:29:00.000+10:00

When i came back from Australia more than a year ago, i tend to compare the Malaysian and Australian health care... especially the pharmacy dispensing system. There is soo much to improve in Malaysia, like seriously.
one of the branches of the pharmacy that i worked in Aust.

But since i was in HKL, and of course i was SO SMALL ( big in size, small in position) ! so there's nothing much, well nothing at all, that i could change, other than trying to be a good pharmacist giving the right info and drugs, ensure the best of pharmaceutical care is given to the patients.

But now I'm posted to a smaller scale place, my position is still small, but at least i get to decide ( at the moment) on how to run and manage the place. well, im planning to instill certain things that i have learnt and experienced in Australia as well as HKL! Gosh, when i come here, i couldn't stop comparing between HKL and this place pulak! ( what have been practising in this area!) I'd agree if they said, KL get more attention than other places :) i mean, KL is more advanced in terms of certain system and even medications!!

For example, this one simple scenario, this one drug A has been long banned by Australian system. ( years ago) But then in HKL, it was banned recently. And when im in this state, they are still using the drug A. ( reason : budget. dont want to waste the money! *whatdaa*)

Another example : proper counseling, simple dosage administration, storage of medication, pre-packing of certain medications. Things like this are taken lightly here. These are one of the main things that im planning to change. ( InsyaAllah, if its God's will). Im more concern of the quality of medication and information given to the patients, rather than the time that patients need to wait. ( sorry big boss at the top level there,)

Like I said in my previous post, i had to start from scratch. Even from the arrangement of drugs and workflow of dispensing. but Ya Allah, everyday i feel like i worked only for few minutes, rather than hours. Time flies so fast. I always TER skipped my lunch ( but badan still naik!) and when you have staff that are much older than you, and being the only pharmacist , seriously there are lotsss lotss of things to do. I wonder when it will be done! Plus, now i was given another task by the head of the clinic, im handling all the assets in the clinic!! Gosh, that was supposed to be an asset's officer job, but since we are lacking of staff. His or her job is my part-time job too. :( Good thing is i get to learn other ppl's job scope and stuff... widen my knowledge, . but bad thing is : i dont even have time for myself! i wanted to get day off this monday as im working both saturday and sunday (oo, btw, im going to a kampung in labu tomorrow to promote QUM ( quality use of medicine) . will be meeting makciks and pakciks and explained about ubat-ubatan dan kesihatan!) ok, back to myself, i wanted to have day off, but the doctor was reluctant to give one! i knoww,, there are so much work to be done, but i just need some rest :(

seriously, i never knew it will be much busier than working in HKL. :) i love working here though but at times, i miss my pharmacist colleagues back in hospital. Though we are so busy with work in wards or pharmacies, at least we get to have short gossip with each other, or updates during lunch or after work at the hospital cafeteria or on the way to the carpark.
( eh dont get me wrong, its fun talking with the kakak and makcik at my place, but sometimes you just miss meeting people at work, from the same age range group or background :) )

Thank God Mr is just nearby, can always call him for quick lunch or whining, and Thank God for him too, for driving me everyday! accompanying me to the methadone clinic when im alone, taking drugs from other clinic etc etc. He should be paid by me err the goverment too :) i couldnt ask for more. he's the best that anyone could ask.. He is busy as well with his bus business, dealing with his more-headache -staff-than-mine, travelling here and there but still he has time for me :) I love you Mr.

Dari Melaka ke Kuala Perlis

2010-06-14T22:34:00.000+10:00

Let the pictures tell the story and of course, my bablings :)

We went to Kuala Perlis for my cousin's wedding and to celebrate dad's 60th birthday. Since my dad's bday is on Friday, i took evening off from work and drove ( of course la mr) straight to Kuala Perlis. Though my petang was supposed to be off, but i was still doing my work in the car.
( i hate doing asset thingy! why cant i just deal with the medications, not inventories!) ok back to the journey, the view was subhanallah, so beautiful! This is one of the reasons i always stay awake during journey on highway. PLUS highway towards the northern states has splendid view of beautiful mountains , grassy greeny paddy field. ( i love LEKAS too, from seremban to KL, well thats like almost my every other day route) BUT PLUS highway heading the southern's view, is so-so la :)

we checked in at a hotel called Putra Brasmana which was right in front of the jetty to Langkawi Island. But didnt get to spend time at the beach :(

Onto the setting up of the room for private dinner, there was a WHITEBOARD! ( hahaha!) and my quick-thinking niece, lana wouldnt waste a second.. acara conteng-menyonteng memberi ucapan kepada tok ayah mereka..
tadaaa...

It was Lana's idea to switch off the lights and make a surprise ( though dad was already informed about the dinner!) Pity my uncles n aunties , who have had to listen to the cute little girl. But it was fun :)

rare candid of ayah laughing in picture! so hard to snap a pic of him gelak ok!

our PLEASE STOP SMOKING cake and my bro's gift of BMW cupcakes!

we don't really blow candles during birthday celebrations

(as my mum said, its not really Islamic, but its different case for this one, as blowing is good for dad's lung.)

ma familia, ,love them LOTs. Alhamdulillah.

the main message of the day for him. of course, we love you very much!!

and snaps of the night:

Que Sera Sera

2010-06-04T14:40:00.000+10:00

Although the number of patients has increased tremendously for the past week, i'm still enjoying my work with currently Zee Avi's song on air (its always either soft love ballads, instrumentals or Zee Avi's type songs on the centralised PA system) I love the working environment here! ( though work documents, reports are piling up ) i have to admit, I'm quite stressed to do the management part.. i have less contact with the patients. ( i kinda miss talking to patients! but once in a while, when im bored looking at the screen, ill be helping out a bit at the dispensary)

anyway,

Dad has not been really well lately. He has been in and out of hospitals. ( notice: plural) Gosh, i hate it when parents are getting older. Can they just stay at 40 or 50 and healthy..
I don't fancy growing up neither.

Thinking of it,
when you were small, you were so eager to grow up. U always tell ppl , you are like 5 1/2 years! or 6 1/2. See. When i asked my niece Lana, how old is she? she said almost 7! :)

When I was 14, i cant wait to be 16. Cos it sounds so teenager! ( influence of 'I am 16' song from The Sounds of Music, i guess).
When you are over 25, you don't like admitting your age anymore. .
And you start to count slowly starting 30.

Dont ever think of 40, 50 ++. *sigh* But thats a life fact that we have to accept...like my mum always said, its better aging gracefully, rather than whining about it! ( takde kene mengena)

ish sekejap je masa berlalu, tapi rase amalan saya sgt la kurang :(

btw,

yeay its Friday. But i have to work this weekends, dispensing methadone to the needed ones. and i have to go to other clinic for that. ( which is around 45 mins drive from my workplace!) at times like this, i miss working in HKL! where everything is in one BIG PLACE!

Every Part of Life in Once.

2010-05-25T17:29:00.004+10:00

more updates on my works??

nahh... this entry need to keep my mind off work for a while.

except that Mr has been a great help to the pharmacy last week. Since we are new and have no technician or general worker, and all my staff are ladies! i called my own husband to d rescue.

he was setting up the computer tables at the main office of pharmacy etc.

thanks dear :)

ok, weekend was not too bad.

Had monopoly night with the lil rascals! haha. but i didn't really focus on the game :)

visited the girls that i used to babysit back in Brisbane, and i ended up sleeping at their place( like the old times in brisbane)

Eventhough she's a Dr p.h.d now, and going to do post doc in London ( insyaAllah maybe) , she is still humble as she was before. and I LOVEE THE HOUSE!I LOVE THE NEIGHBORHOOD!! very the aussie/ overseas like!very made me miss Australia badly. For now, i dont think i can afford to buy the house there YET! ( target..target haha)

went to my primary school good friend's wedding in Melaka

and the best thing that i did last weekend was

to dig in my memory treasures..

reading my diaries, my first drawings, all the cards that i received since i was so small!
( can you imagine my mom wrote me a birthday card when i was 3!!) notes from admirers, haha.. notes from BAIK/KAWAN from ssp! ( sspians would understand this! but so funny ok!)

and i came across this journal that i wrote in SSP with my english teacher, Ms Halimah ( we had to write a weekly personal journal to her) and i cant believe i told her mostly everything! esp my feelings and opinions towards everything that happened back then.

there's this one entry that i told her that i always have crushes on boys but it only last for a short period of time. ( crush je ok, i dont engage in relationship back in school, thats why i think i had the loveliest moments of life in high school!! only friends, no boys!!) And i wonder what will happen in future? will i still feel that way when i meet the love of my life.

and she answered : you just wait and see..
haha.. now i know what she meant.

and another entry that put a tear on my eyes.

i was telling her i wonder how it feels like to be a grown up, working, getting married , have our own kids, ( which is happening now!)
would i still be able to see my friends like i see them when i was in school ?
would the friendship is as strong as i had back then in school?
( Back in form 3 in a boarding school, u basically lived with your friends!)
i told her i was so lucky to be in that school with great friends surrounded me
i don't want school to end. ( well not so typical 15 years old girl )

gosh, that journal made miss high school times badly. i miss my SSP girls :(

well i miss all the memories in school, both primary n secondary school. i miss my KDU clans and i still, never stop missing the people back in Brisbane.

But of course, i still enjoy the presence..my married life with Mr and family..
and currently, my workplace :)

Work Update :(

2010-05-14T01:01:00.011+10:00

Phew, there goes my whole week working as a hard labor. no mind, all energy!
( except in a couple of meetings with the big shots, but i almost dozed off!)

ok, before i even began writing my post, i would like to remind my readers..
( based on recent experience of cleaning own workplace :) )

please please appreciate the cleaners or general helpers that you have at work.

you might think their existence is not as important as yours! but WRONG! everyone has his or her own crucial role in an institution. never ever treat them bad!

ok back to my story.

here's my new place.
its a big, very big indeed place. this is just the entrance.

and it has all these units in it. o plus the emergency also k. but that one is outside.

and as the only pharmacy, we are catering for all the medicines prescribed by all these units.

( this is my room-t0-be, as u can see, its still filled with banquet chairs to be arranged accordingly later)

anyway,

THERE ARE LOTS OF THINGS TO DO, WHEN YOU START OPEN UP A CLINIC.

I was given a pharmacy with no start up cost :) but its under this clinic and its not even a small clinic. as u can seee, they have outpatient department, they have maternity clinic, x-ray, even labs to run test and even dental! its a small scale of big hospital.

But the building is big. ( its not that big compared to hospital) but its big enough , too big for not even 10 people start up , to clean up ourselves, sweep and cuci the whole building, arrange the chairs ( chair yg byk2 k for the ppl to sit while they wait, and if u come here, and see the bad handwriting of HAK KERAJAAN at the back of chair, yes it belongs to me!)

from thisto this

we even koyakkan all the plastic bag. yeahh,,it sounds easy. wait till u try it for like THOUSANDS of chairs! my hands were swollen and not to mention dirty. luckily, we were ASKED to wear baju mencuci, But on my first day when i all dressed up in my new blouse bought from Mimpikita, and tudung from Ariani! haha, i was out of place~ dah la tak kenal org! but i managed to call mr to send me a tshirt ;)

as for the pharmacy,
Alhamdulillah, things are getting better now. received bits by bits. Not all medicines ordered have arrived yet, but the clinic is opening this Monday. We are not 100% ready yet but what to do, have to menurut perintah. :) but iAllah, we hope to operate smoothly. hopefully there will be no fussy patients complaining about no stock of drugs!
And the pharmacy is really big ( takkan la kecik kan!) and i have hundred of keys and of course, before i go back, hundreds of doors to be checked and locked! ( hundreds is exaggerating la but byk laa) So no more punch card right at 5 pm! But seriously byk gile pintu to check cos we have different kinds of preparation rooms, different kind of stores- tablets la mixtures la external la, we even have a big meeting room ( which we only me and my three other staff at the moment) , counseling room and the list goes on..

As im very new and inexperience , totally 0 experience in managing or handling KK, luckily they put 'veteran' staff under me., one is around my mother in law's age and another two is around my bro's age! So they have been patiently teaching me stuff ;) But i still have A LOT, seriously A LOT to learn and catch up. and i have to do it FAST!

so wish me luck for the opening this monday. hopefully not many patients will turn up! :) that will buy me time to wait for the drugs to arrive and settle more things :)

OK NEED TO SLEEP NOW. got meeting early in the morning :(
( meeting on Saturday's morning and more cleaning of the new place on Sunday!

but will run to PD sekejap after the meeting for in-laws family gath :)

work hard play hard :)

No More A Hospital Pharmacist

2010-05-08T19:42:00.018+10:00

Bye bye HKL
As sad as I should be i was pretty relief actually. Not to say, that i don't like working in HKL, i love working there, i do!! But the workload and the hectic environment.. well, it is number 1 referral center in Malaysia. all the chronic cases are referred here... What more can i say? But im glad i had my first working experience in HKL. That place taught me alot.. ( its the best place to learn!) but for long term, i would think twice ;) ( sorry HKL colleagues! but thank you so much for everything)

Well, I am now transferred to a new place.TOTALLY new, smaller scale health care facility ,
a Klinik Kesihatan.
i was, still am happy, Alhamdulillah.. But i was informed, its new, as in really new. its not even opened yet till next 2 weeks!! And yes, I am the only pharmacist there but i have helper n staff under me. i have no superior above me, meaning I'm the boss :) Its a huge responsibility given to me.

The place is still empty,i have to start from scratch!! i even have to decide on the layout of the pharmacy ( counter, office, store etc) , ordering of medications, management, and EVERYTHING! I have to decide on my own!! ( cuak starts to creep in!) i have to decide on the packaging and do on our own, seriously, i am excited and anticipated for this but at the same time, thinking of the responsibility. Im a bit scared!! My big big boss told me, its up to me how I'd manage the pharmacy. But i have to be strict with the staff ( errr i might have problem with this!) but what i worried more, if the doctors or patients asked me tough questions, i have no other pharmacist to discuss with! meaning, i have to decide on my own!
its all decisions!
OMG so cuak ok. if you ppl know me, im a very indecisive and fickle-minded person, not good i know. But well, have to change that, insya Allah.

Now i regret for not paying attention in PHRM 4030 ( social and profesional aspect in pharmacy) class back in uni on management of pharmacy etc etc. But insya Allah, I can do this, of course with the help of my new colleagues from other klinik kesihatan. ... and my friends back in HKL too. if i have any doubts in medications related issues, i'd call them. ( we've encountered so much cases, so hopefully that wouldnt be a big problem)

Another thing, i need to travel further now.

Last time, from my family's place near PWTC to my old workplace is only 5 minutes,
then after i got married, i moved to Mont kiara.
And from there to my old workplace is about 10-15 minutes
And now, guess what? to my new workplace, about 45 mins- 1 hr!
all minus the traffic! :(

bummer.

Coughing? Batuk? Tussis?

2010-05-04T16:15:00.000+10:00

I am coughing a lil bit now.
o well, not little actually.

And guess what i was looking for?! ( i even bought it at the 7 elevens nearby) ish. this!

so much of supporting dispensing right for pharmacist eh, but i do support 100% ok!

I always get a puzzled look from the doctors whenever i told them i have been taking this for my cough!

and i always,and never fail to get this reply
' you are a pharmacist and you are having that!'

i don't even know whether its for dry ( non productive cough) or cough with phlegm ( productive cough).
i just love the soothing taste ( and dont worry, i dont overdose!)

and therefore, i did my own research ( more on search!)of the main ingredients in the this traditional chinese medicine. A number of ingredients , should i say herbs..in this med helps in relieving cough ( duhh! everyone knows that!) and different herbs are combined to address the factors that can occur with the cough, which could be the causative roots in the problems.
The main one which is Fritillaria has been commonly used as antitussive and expectorant in China. It is also useful in the ailments pertaining to lungs ( but dont take the ubat batuk cap ibu & anak for your lung!) This is just one of the ingredients. However, i don't see the precaution or contraindication on the box or leaflet of the medicine. Few ingredients in the bottle are actually contraindicated in patients with hypertension,cholestatis disorder ( something to do with your bile flow from liver to duodenum), hypokalaemia,(low potassium level) chronic renal insufficiency and of course, during pregnancy. ( it could cause pre-term labor) . i seriously think they should at least put something or warning for above conditions.

So sekiranya anda mempunyai mengandung, atau mempunyai penyakit darah tinggi, kandungan garam potassium yang rendah didalam badan, atau mengambil ubat-ubat yang menyebabkan pengurangan garam didalam badan dan peningkatan air ( water retention?! peningkatan ke) ape2 la.. atau anda mempunyai masalah buah pinggang atau hati ( liver ye!), jangan la mengambil ubat batuk cap ibu dan anak :)

o wait people, there's more about cough that i'd like to share. most of the ppl might know this already. but never mind. if you are not interested, you can stop reading now ;) thank you,

ok,

different cough mixture works for different kind of cough.

So if you are buying a cough mixture, make sure you are asked by the pharmacist or the doctor,

what type of cough are you having? any other symptoms? any allergies? any other medicine are u having? how long have you had the cough? etc etc.

if we ask, pls dont think that we are being nosy. There are reasons behind each questions asked. If we dont ask, tell us. ie. sy batuk kering la..or batuk sy ade kahak.

I always notice, people are taking the wrong cough medicine for their cough. When they have cough, they just grab any cough med in the medicine cabinet :) without knowing what is the exact indication of the med.

( my mum's medicine cabinet hidden by a mirror ;)
ppl wouldn't know we put medicine in this. it was pretty high for kids, so unreachable for the little children.
Its like the little pharmacy in the house. and of course, i'm the supplier :)
Every time i come back here, i have to re-check the expiry, right drug in the right packet, right label- i need to label the indication cos my maid wouldnt undertand drug name, even my mum sometimes. )

ok back to cough story.

If you have dry, ticklish cough, no sputum is produced..( batuk kering) it is usually viral infection and is self limiting.( other words: heal by itself) but if u insist to be treated, we would usually give cough suppressant ie : phocoldine, dextromethorphan and demulcents like glycerin, lemon and honey or simple linctus!

But if you are having productive, chesty cough, which means sputum is produced. (batuk berkahak) You should not be treated with the above mentioned medications. The cough suppressants will result in pooling and retention of mucus in lung, and hence, higher chance of infections! So for productive cough, colored sputum ( mucus) could indicate bacterial infection. So if you notice colors like green, yellow or rusted color + increase in temperature +unwell , go and see the doctor! might get antibiotic depending on further assessment from doctor, ( pharmacists do not sell antibiotic without prescription!) As for the non-colored sputum ( ie clear and whitish), it is known as mucoid and uninfected. In this case, expectorant can be taken, like guaiphenesin, to promote expectoration of the secretion. And do not use antihistamine ( ie: diphenhydramine, tripolidine) if you have productive cough.

how do you know what ingredients in your current cough remedies? just read the label ;)

and yeah, never treat your cough for more than 2 weeks.
If your cough persists,
hurry up and go see the doctor! :

Do We Wear Make Up When We Play Sports?

2010-05-02T16:48:00.005+10:00

OMG

I'm officially old! After months in my dormant state, ( the only kind of sports im playing at the moment,is golf at driving range! if you call it sports!) i went for swimming this morning. I only did TWO laps , yes people only 2 laps but now, my muscles esp thigh, are aching like crazy!! Mr said i was exaggerating but memang sesungguhnya tidak. He is fine, cause he swims and goes to gym almost everyday! So this morning, when he popped out the question, " nak ikut tak?", i look at my fattening body and i decided to join him without any proper warm up or any stretching!

padan muka now im suffering.

but that doesn't stop me from going to KLCC to buy my most important cosmetic, my eyeliner. I don't really wear make up.. ( i know.. im a quarter of century age and i'm suck in painting my own face!) .Most of the times, i just apply an eyeliner and a lipgloss on my face.
( well, i think memakai celak is sunnah kan? ;)

i only have this in my bag.

I used to wear MAC, still like it sometimes , but i love Benefit more :)
like the salesgirls always say, its like a face lift surgery but with a make up. of course, a lipstick, gloss. Sometimes, a lipbalm will do.

o btw, my niece thought that my eyeliner was a crayon. End of story. That explains the need of new eyeliner kan?!

Well, the only time that i wear heavy make up was on my wedding day!!
compared to this,
but nevermind.. moreoever, i work in a hospital, in hot weather of malaysia, walking from ward to ward with no air cond, in my white coat, by noon, my make up will be gone! its still there, but look a bit smudged. so i decided not to wear any except for the minimal one :) if i do wear it

o good luck Malaysian netball team in Queensland Asian Uni Games ;) The tournament starts tomorrow! ( gosh, i really do miss playing netbal and the team too !! the very very, ok.)

ps. title yg tak berkaitan langsung.

I thought im over it, but im not...

2010-04-29T21:50:00.003+10:00

There is this one friend of mine, who is currently working and residing in Melbourne.

We got pregnant around the same time.
In fact, our EDD ( due date) was 2 days difference.

I tried not to check her facebook page but i always do.
always do.. esp when its on the newsfeed!
She likes to put update on the growth of the baby and even the video.

I know i shouldnt feel this way, but i couldnt help it.
I always wonder, if im still pregnant,my progression will be like hers.
only Allah knows how painful it is to see that.
But of course, i pray for her wellbeing.
I pray that none of my friends need to get through the feeling that im having now.

But i know, Allah has better plans for me kan,, insyaAllah.
Maybe its not the suitable time yet for my angel to grow in my tummy and live in this world.

i still keep the scan pictures :(

Well, it has only been one month plus since the procedure.
So, im allowed to be sad kan :)

WeekEnd

2010-04-26T22:53:00.000+10:00

I had pretty full n fun weekend :) Apart from the usual routine of having fun with the nieces, hanging out at family's place and of course spending quality time with mr.
I actually had a green light for girls' night out! * yeay*

The day started with accompanying Mr to golf fiesta in KLGCC Though i would lovee to try the golf equipment with free coaching, but my recovering uterus is upmost prioritised! So was just window shopping on d apparel n stuff! But we got ourselves few free magazines and a bag! Mr on d other hand, who was like a happy kid in a playground, got himself few tshirts n err...a golf club..

Since he got few tshirts, i wanted to buy clothes too! =) So off we went to mimpikita in Bangsar, my fav shop

I splurged a lil bit ( not little sadly) but its forgivable since i dont do much shopping lately!

I bought few tops but this is my fav purchase of the day.. err... weeks.I love the smooth silky satin and the french lace patched at the top! well done nurul! :) cant wait for the collection of handbags coming out sooon!

As for the rest of the evening.. n night ;), me and the girls were planning to watch Hooperz (the one and only reason i wanna watch it is netball!) im a big huge fan of netball, and so is my good friend, my co-capt back in brisbane! But the waiting time at Meatworks in Mont Kiara was so longg ( not to mention, the place was packed!!) and four of us were too engaged in gossiping n updating ( esp me!! Need lots catch ups) And yeah,i neeed more time to finish up this huge signature steak but totally recommended! as for the movie, ill just wait for d movie to come up in TV or dvd

i really had great time catching up with them! and ili too! but she went back already at this time, the pic was taken. The pic was blur cos i 'copied' the pic with my phone :) it was actually from zara's polaroid camera.

seee,

I dont get to spend lots of time with my girlfriends like I used to do... extremely sad..( well i am a boring married middle 20s woman, i dont have much social life anymore ,,hehehe) I guess age is catching up, huh!! But, i spend most of my times nowadays with my family! ( i love mr and family to the max! they are my life!!) well i guess to make up the time lost , when i was in boarding school and abroad =) I was away since i was 13 until like what 24?! And when you are working in a hospital, with work commitment, husband to take care of, and a big family with a mum who like making plans. i dont get to spend as much time as i want, with my beloved friends. sad,, i know.. But never in my heart, i think less of them! far from forgotten them.. ( cehh,, jiwang pulak!) but seriously, i always think of my friends, Thank God for facebook, blogs etc.. At least i know whats going on in their life and they are doing fine. Im a bad friend i know.. =(
To my good friends out there, im sorry i havent been in touch lately, but i just want you girls to know, i love you and i miss you all :( And i always pray for your happiness and joy, people! Muahs!

Pheww

2010-04-20T14:28:00.002+10:00

I am babysitting my nephew and niece for the whole day while their parents are at the hospital, in d labor room. New baby is coming soon :) yeay.
I used to babysit kids 'alone' back in Australia almost 6 years ago!! Omg, how time flies so fast! But when Mr came in 2 years after, we would babysit together. So i'm used to , the hard works all been done by Mr, and I'll handle the easy parts :)

But today and tomorrow, Mr is having meeting and work related at his hometown, so here i am babysitting alone at my family's place. I almost forgot how it feels to babysit alone without a maid,or my mum around and of course, mr himself! But I'm loving every seconds with the kids despite the fact that Disney channel, playhouse, or nickeledon is on 24/7.

On the other hand, what shocked me, is the recent news on paper, about an infant died of choking a fishball at a nursery!! The size of the food is one thing, but another thing is none of the staff there know the basic first aid for choking! and its a daycare! Back in Australia, if your work is related to children, you are required to have a blue card, (that it just to make sure you are clean from any criminal records or anythg ) Even if you are just a babysitter, moreover a teacher or nursery caregiver. Lg la penting! and there, in a childcare, its a requirement for the personnel to have first aid certificate!

So notes to parents out there, if you want to send your lil kids to a nursery or daycare, make sure at least one of the staff has the first aid certificate. ( at least tau basic live saving steps)

My cert was longgg expired! :( so all i have is this book that i bought in a flea market in Brisbane. But its a good one! have everything in it! I tried to bring d book anywhere, if possible !! ( well, in other words, its left in the car)
You'll never know when u need it. But i pray i wont!. ameen.

Random

2010-04-14T06:09:00.001+10:00

Everyday, around 5 pm, when I'm on my way from work to home, when I pass by the HKL field,
I will definitely see a group of ladies playing netball, well ,they are training for the coming of some sort of Kementerian Kesihatan Msia tournament.
.( and deep inside my hand and feet are aching to join them! :)

I saw this poster when i was 2 months pregnant.
I wanted to join the HKL netball team badly, but have to sacrifice for the baby la kan.
But now, i am not pregnant anymore, i feel like joining their training :)
but, nahhhh for real. i have stopped playing netball.
And of course, neither mr and mother didnt fancy me playing netball anymore

O btw, when i was small, i love watching Baby's Day Out! Since i have been spending most of my times at home last few weeks, TV has become my partner in addition to my hubby, of course! I was feeling fine about losing the baby, but whenever i watch any movies with babies in it, i would definitely become all teary :( EVEN the comedy movie, Baby's Day Out! can u believe it!? Haha.. JUNO lagi laa. Well, only at times la,, not all the times, but i'd be lying if i say i didnt miss my little bit bulging tummy and evening sickness that i had. ..

O well, alhamdulillah im perfectly fine now except im dreading having to go to work everyday. :) O God, please give me back my motivation and spirit of happiness in dealing with drugs, checking patients' medication profiles, talking to patients, discussing with doctors, socializing with own colleagues!

ps. Im so looking forward for this weekend. IAllah will be having my 6th niece! :) YEAY! more kids in the family! Please pray for my sis in law!

Walking on sunshine...err shoes.

2010-04-09T18:02:00.000+10:00

I WAS supposed to be still in my confinement period after the miscarriage. But alhamdulillah im feeling ok, so hence, the WAS! i know i should take a very good care of myself ( as advised by mother and mak in law) but im such a stubborn girl :( Tawakal to Allah everything will be fine, i hope.

By the way, since i was at my family's place nearby pwtc, i took the opportunity to pay a visit to the shoes exhibition last Friday! I'm not really a shoe person! well, at least for now and lately :) . I used to love buying shoes, when i was younger. err. uni time i guess.. Back then, you have so many events and activities where u can actually wear your different-color-or-different-design shoes. But nahh not anymore, working in the hospital( 5 days a week with additional oncalls during weekends!) has forced me to wear only different color of CROCS! and maybe a pair of black shoes or sandals from Nine West.. i dont wear designer shoes cos obviously i couldnt afford it yet. ( siap ade yet tuuu!) but i was hopin to window shopping a few at the exhibition, but sadly that were not much choices of brands there.. And Jimmy Choo's shoes... berangan jer la nak beli, when i saw the price was like WHOAA.. RM 340,000!! crazy! I could buy a house ( maybe not in KL!) but when i have a property, i could rent it out! But when you buy shoes, what would you do with it?! ( you are walking on hundred thousands, ladies! ) So crazy! how some people can spend lavishly on certain things!

I went there with my sis in law and of course, my 7 year old niece who already loves shopping! She was trying out the adults' shoes! And yup, she got one for herself! ( kids size btw!) and the only thing that i find interesting there is the exhibition on history of shoes etc. Couldnt take proper pics cos i was only using phone.

o yeah, so much of window shopping! i got myself 2 pair of shoes for me, and another pair for mum, that day. :( but at the very good bargain! balik rumah, that was the first excuse i told mr!

GIFT FROM GOD

2010-03-31T10:15:00.002+10:00

well,
i lost the baby.....

Last Friday , my lil angel was 'officially' gone.. She or he is no more in my tummy. :( The ERPOC went well , alhamdulillah and now im resting 'again' with additional of MC for 2 weeks :)

I must admit, it was a devastating period for me but Alhamdulillah, im coping well now.. Like in previous post, I believe in Qada and Qadar and im certain that Allah knows whats best for me and Mr.. though sometimes i couldnt help wondering, why is it happening to me, but again, in God we believe kan. :) well, it is a fact, that miscarriage is quite common. Its just i was a bit unlucky to have had to experience it. :(

warning : the following content is slightly insensitive, so bear with me.

But what kinda hurt me is whenever i read the paper lately, the front page is filled with cases of buang bayi almost everyday!! I dont know what world am i living now? is Malaysia an islamic country if we have enormous number of cases like this! I really hate those people who can simply throw away the most precious gift given by God. And sometimes i wonder, how some girls can simply abort the babies, ( of course if they do it illegally! ) and even worse, dump your babies anywhere you want? what kind of human are they?

anak luar nikah, buang baby, abort unwanted baby as consequence of some irresponsible stupid acts.. astaghfirullah. i guess the world is really coming to its end.

i would say, they should punish those stupid mothers yg buang their babies. Lifetime in jail maybe or even hukum gantung ke ape.. baru takut kot nak buat. hish. benci tol,, o wait, both father and mother...oops they couldnt be called father and mother. both laki n pompuan. now we can detect the DNA kan from the baby ( ke i watched too much of CSI! ) but whatever it is, find them.

it really kills me inside whenever i read or hear about this news.it does. really does. imagine when i was small, i couldnt stand the sound of baby crying, because i will cry too! cos im sad that they are crying! not because i hate the sound! and now seeing those horrible pictures of dead babies left outside in the garbage area, at the field, in the toilet. What the hell are they thinking man?!Pardon me for all this whining , but i am really sad...thinking of this harsh reality in my own country.

Anyway. and i would like to thank my Mr , my family and my good friends for the undying support and encouragement through the whole process... Im doing ok now. Thank you so much people. You know who you are... for being with me, asking how am i doing, praying for me, checking on me ( though i took quite some time to reply, or didnt reply at all, sorry for that) but i really do appreciate the concern. Love you people. i really do. THANK YOU.

How I Met Myself?

2010-03-23T17:17:00.003+10:00

I am watching re-run of How I Met Your Mother from my lost hard disk that i just found ( apparently my lil bro took it to his campus!)Never mind, i wouldnt had as much time as i am having now to watch everything in it.

As currently, im resting and hibernating in my nest, doing nothing other than house chores :) watching HBO or STAR, and spending time with my nieces, going back and forth to my parents' place and most of all, spending quality time with Mr...and yes tonite, will be the first time after so many weeks,im meeting my good friends for dinner in Bangsar.

Alrite, back to my first point, unlike my sister who will whine about missing NY city so bad everytime we watch the series, i will actually think of how i wanted to stay in the US either study or work there if i had the chance...

And that will actually lead to think of what i have done in life for the past 25 years. And that will eventually lead to the good memories that i had when i was in primary school, my high school , college, and university years.. Alhamdulillah, i had wonderful childhood and teenhood memories.. entering adulthood during college/university years have been great too with its ups an downs.. But i survived the down part with the good support that i have from my family and friends. And therefore, i should be thankful to God for what He has given me. And this one lost that im having, im accepting it well as one of the God's test in my life. Im sure, pretty sure Allah have better plan for me , insyaAllah.

Just would like to share this song that recently i love to listen:) the original song was by Bob Dylan.

Dear Allah

2010-03-12T20:03:00.003+10:00

when you hear things that you wish you never get to hear, at the checkup.

all you need to do

is pray.

pray for miracles to happen.

pray for the strength to get through it.

pray for the peace of mind to move on.

ameen

This fun thing called sports.

2010-02-07T10:41:00.010+10:00

Im currently in orthopedic wards, so everyday my eyes are filled with open/closed, gross wounds,cuts. Sometimes with foully smell! Everyday seeing these people who were warded after operations due to accidents, injury, falls or even certain disease.. Some of them had history of fall or sports injury like years ago (sometimes up to 20 years ago!) and the effect is only visible when they are old! How scary is that kan? Made me worried about all the injuries that I got during my netball years!

Talking about netball, sadly I have decided to ‘retire’ from my much beloved sports. I guess I have to say bye bye to the rough sports..there goes futsal/soccer too ( but i already stop playing that game when im back home) Was having dinner at my family’s place when Mr and mother agreed that netball is not really a suitable sport for me anymore, considering my age and commitments. It was really fun when u were young and carefree. You can just jump up and down without being conscious on your body appearance,health and err injury! My mum herself was a netball player when she was in school and university, so I had to agree with her on that. So that’s it. I’m officially done with the sports that I have passion in. But when u don’t play that game, that doesn’t mean you are not updated with your favourite team kan, the Diamonds ( Australia netball team)

So now, I have found something that I MIGHT have passion in, GOLFThats my mr in action at range.

I joined golf lesson back in 2004 when I was in Brisbane. We had a coach but I never really had the time to enjoy it as I was busy with netball. So now, im back to ‘ it’, with the encouragement of Mr, who was good in trying to ‘win my heart’with this game.

My initials are sewn on his golf bag.

He bought cute orang utan soft toy, my pick for his driver's cover! haha.

Mr, as well needs to 'cut down' his soccer and futsal games due to his injuries. Thank God no more rugby when we are back in Malaysia..it’d be a heart wrenching every time I watch him playing the game. So now, he always spends his free time at golf courses or driving ranges. But I never really follow him to the golf course ( panas ok), so for now, like a small kid, I’m ‘training’ at the range.

At least I still do sports :) with my beloved mr.

Well, bye bye netball and hi golf!

Life as A Wife

2010-01-20T21:54:00.003+10:00

I have been super duper busy, extremely busy with pilling works that have been neglected for the wedding prep, am still busy. :( patients in 3rd class wards never get less.. the ward can only accomodate up to 4o patients and now you can see 60 patients in each ward!! in between beds, there's extension beds.

adding to 'qada' the oncalls that i didnt have to do during december, hey january is here. and back to work.

On my first few days of work after the wedding, i really didnt feel like working.
But after seeing and helping the patients.
The motivation is there. I dont know why.

Its a satisfaction to see satisfaction on their face.

I work hard when i am at work,
only at work

So at 5 pm sharp, my mind is already at home, waiting for him to pick me up :)

My hubby is all im thinking of :)

in other words,
married life is good.

will post about my wedding later ..need to do lots of reading about the cases,now :(

take care everyone.

2009-12-15T21:32:00.005+10:00

I just got back from work when my niece, Lana surprised me with this on my bed.
( i dont keep crayons/pencil colours in my house, so my red pen and my note were all that she had!)

My first wedding card :) haha.

she even wrote the word pharmacy and bus company ! haha.

so sweet of her. she even put all the teddy bears ( which are mine) and put flowers around the 'paper'.

thank you Lana!!

10 more days to go.. and the nervous feeling is here already :)

Life is good..without oncalls.

2009-12-06T12:18:00.004+10:00

I would like to thank my senior pharmacist for being considerate not to put me on any oncalls this December :) So i have a free month and weekends , i Allah! ( hahaha.. not so free, since i have very last minute wedding preparation to be done!)

Anyway, for my first weekend this December, i enjoyed it with my beloved girlfriends that i havent met for ages!

my partners in crime, MAFIOSO!

it was really really SUPER duper fun to meet your highschool 'sweethearts' who went to detention,headmistress's room, group counseling together, sneak-out at nights, and many more! Though it was only 5 of us, but the whole restaurant was filled with our laugh yg tak ingt. Kemek was supposed to join us, but due to unforeseen circumstances ( hubby was sick) she had to cancel :(...But ,spending times with them made me miss them so much. We didnt really get to hang out that often, we have 2 doctors, banker, event manager, teachers, lecturer and MOST OF ALL the distance!! its so hard to get all of us together :( Not to mention, 3 of us are married and ill be joining them soon :) These are the people that i met everyday in school, we eat, read,study,weed, sleep, play,pray together. The ones that i shared my ups and downs in school ( takde la down sgt, except when the principal thought that we are girls, but the most that we did, is sneak out from school to play BOWLING! can u believe that?! haha.
But its funny, how we don't keep in touch,with all of us that often, but when we meet up, it feels like we talk to each other everyday! I guess, that's the beauty of high school girlfriends!

My beautiful inside outside girlfriends.

4 sekawan from the college days.. Wish mima was here with us, but she's far away in Germany.. Shafaf is working as a doctor in the UK now so she's back for a while :) And Pupu, the Kiwi Mama of her son, is still as cute as before...and yes, spending times with them made me realised that i miss them much too :(

My much beloved Brisbane girlfriends, that i always feel like family.
and now, im getting ready for spa evening with Nurul n Shira, and yes, how i wish Zara,Ili and Mia were here in KL!!
Dont worry Mr... i still love you much sayang :) Thank you!

ps. how nice if i dont have any oncalls at all :) Mr, can i be a housewife please..

Cant Get Enough of Them!

2009-12-02T00:49:00.006+10:00

One of the best things about the celebration/holiday.....

is family..

and these kids ( my little munchkins) are the joy of all.
I could spend hours, days with them.
and auntie is so, sorry girls.. i have no recent Eid's Lana and Aysha solo picture, in my phone .

but,
I really had great weekend with them..

and

ALL my brothers, forced me to DRIVE! ( as some of you might know, i just got my licence this year,, and it has been months :) hehe. ) and yes, not very proudly im saying it, i failed a couple of times :)
. i could get pharmacy license but not driving license! :) thats what the JPJ guy told me. But now i have my license already :) hehe. Usaha tangga kejayaan! :)
All of them, meaning to say my brothers ( the married and unmarried ones ) were in the car, invigilating me , to make sure, im competent enough to drive ;) haha. . a fun way of get together huh! laughing hard at me, seeing my skills of driving! but thanks bros!

and yes,
i was sad on Sunday, as i need to leave home for KL earlier than the rest of the family!

Life..

2009-11-24T23:40:00.004+10:00

An elderly man came to the pharmacy counseling room today. With three bags of medicine asking me to counsel him on the medications. After hours of explaining on how to inject insulin for his diabetes,taking nitrate tablets for his chest pain , cutting some of the hypertension tablets into half & quarters and the proper administration other medications..He was too old to quickly grasp the information, right technique, moreover, his limited hand capability ( few fingers were not working) actually hindered him from being able to do it himself. Therefore, i asked him if he has anyone at home to help him with his medication. And sadly , at that age.. no.. he is living alone..

His children whom according to him, he has raised them with full education and stable job, have left him all alone after he has transferred all his saving money and the house to them! to make things worse, I found out that he has not been taking his medication ( which explains the 3 bags) because he has no money to buy food. He tried taking the medication without food, it ended him suffering from severe gastric and bloating. ( mind you at least he has 10 medications for his hypertension and diabetes and cholestrol)

He is around my father's age and i could not imagine my dad being in his situation. nauzubilah. Living alone with no caregiver, or not even a visitor, at that age is quite heart-rending. I pray to God, it wont happen to any of my loved ones and me.

On the other hand, to us, children out there, no matter how angry or dissapointed you are with your father/mother, ( or maybe you are just plainly dumb and insensible not to appreciate your parents) Maybe im hearing only one side of story from the poor father but that doesnt change the fact that he is still their father. He may not be the best father, you might think so, but HE IS STILL YOUR DADDY. Its our responsibility, to take care of our parents. This man was reluctant to leave the small flat that he is living in now, because he told me the children know he is living there, but he has no idea on how to reach them. ( if i had the chance to meet them, i might have scolded them..really bad.. and the fact that their father CANT live alone. His medication, his limited abilities to use his fingers and eyes. ok enough, this kind of things could boil me up inside )

I am thankful to Allah to be blessed with great parents... My dad who recently just got discharged again from hospital, is the coolest dad ever, to me! He trust me and I trust him too..to be strong in fighting whatever he is having now. I love you Ayah.

thanks to my dear friends, for their concern, who constantly sms and call..asking how was my dad doing. truly appreciate that.

Dorm Sweet Dorm

2009-11-20T22:20:00.002+10:00

I went to my alma mater, during my friday lunch break at work,

to invite my beloved teachers to my wedding end of the year.

Was supposed to be joined by Jelot, Fatty, Apoo and last minute, Inarah and Nerk! But being doctors they are, had to cancel last minute due to time constraint and Fatty had last minute meeting.

So it was just me and my sister, and later, Nerk, the most mischievous kid in the batch joined us! The funniest thing that the teachers said was, actually every school need a girl like Nerk to spice things up in school life :) totally agreed.

I really had fun meeting the teachers...catching up stories and all. As HKL is quite nearby to the school, they were thrilled to know that me and Jelot are currently working there. ( no more long que for check ups and meds! they said. ) They were really surprised to see Nerk and they insisted us to go and say hi to our beloved warden, Ustazah Einee who is now a headmistress in another school.

And yes, they still couldnt believe that me and my sister are SISTERS! yes, she's the tall and slim one ;) She was in Saphire house/dorm , I was in Ruby.. She was a basketballer, i was a netballer. .The only time that most of the teachers that we are sisters, was when my dad, the same dad went up to the stage for our PMR and SPM result ;)

Anyway the teachers told us that, we just missed an Australian who just came to the school to pay a visit. Apparently, his great great grandfather was the one who designed the school building during the Japanese occupation, or before. Couldn't remember. The head warden/principal's house was actually his house that he built and later was used as a hospital during the japanese war! that explained the ghost stories back then! :( The Australian was so thrilled and excited to see that the building is still there, exactly the same. even the two houses!

back to story of my school.

Though there were only 8 teachers that i know of, still in that school, but all of them had become principal, vice principal, head of departments and senior teachers. Moreover, the name of the school is different, (well MY school, Sekolah Seri Puteri, KL has been moved to Cyberjaya,and now its Sek. Men Sains Seri Puteri in KL.) though i dont see the point of moving the school and replace it with another new school with name skolah yg lebih kurang same?! what were they thinking?!.

i still strongly feel that 5 years in that small piece of land with small number of girls are better than 2 years of school with big number of girls in a small land, or 5 years of school with big number of girls in a big LAND!

I never went to Cyberjaya, but my sister did during her final year of school. but both of us ( and the teachers!) agreed that we prefer the old surrounding with the old tradition and the old place..

i still feel that the kolam ayer place is my place. The place that i grew up for 5 years with my friends, and taught me to be what i want to be. The place that i spent most of teenagers time day and night! The place that i truly miss and have shaped me to be what i am now. thank you Allah.

If i had a daughter, i wish i could send her to SSPKL.. from form 1 to form 5. .
experience the same experience that i had.
but i know that fact that..
there is no more 5 years of SSP KL!! sadly.

Dear Mr.

2009-11-17T02:11:00.008+10:00

to the love of my life,

( one of the few similarity that we have is sports)

we've been through a lot. ( name it, we got it!)
ups and downs
sweet and sours
love and hatred
like and dislike
happiness and sadness
joy and anger.

but still, our love is strong.

i love you ..
so much.

counting days to be your wife. :)
may 'us' be blessed by Allah,,always be.
Happy Birthday Sayang

birthday boy celebrated at Bangsar.

were playing golf at golf course simulator in bsc, hence the golf glove and casual attire of him,
(off from work on bday)
but not me, was in my work attire, still.

Little Body. Extra Care.

2009-11-10T19:52:00.000+10:00

It was about 5 pm, time to go home.. when suddenly a young mother came to me with a prescription for her baby. The baby wasnt there. So somehow, it just crossed my mind to ask the weight of the baby. Sadly, she doesnt know. But my gut tells me something is wrong with the Rx, though the dose looks fine. ( for normal children) But to my suprise, when i asked her to bring in the baby and i actually got to hold her, she was very petite and light too. . And it brought my attention to the doses prescribed which is obvious more than the double of requirement!! O my god, if i have had dispensed the three medications, without checking the weight, only God knows what will happen to the poor baby. ..

some people (very few, in fact) like to simply give medicine to small children without weighing the body first.

i know, maybe with experiences, you know at what age, what dose is suitable..but not all the time

BUT, with KIDS! personally, i think, its a must to weigh a child! The dose depends on it.

And this is what happen when you simply scribble and prescribe meds without proper calculation.

--> The pharmacist detects something is wrong with the dose, recalculate dose based on the correct weight, and chase that 'person' down and made him/her write another script.

But what if, there were too many people and we missed out the error..

What will happen to the little children?
-getting too much drugs for the body to handle.. (nauzubillah) it could lead to death!
-getting very low dose, it wont cure and could lead to other worse thing. (nauzubillah)

So to all mothers and mothers-to-be out there, make sure ALWAYS know the weight of your children. ALL medications' dose depends on it.

save the date.

2009-11-05T19:24:00.000+10:00

Finally....

we are getting married. So please save the date.

25 December 2009 8 pm Melaka.

The wedding card will be followed up soon. Do drop me your address if you think i dont have yours.
It'd be an honour if you could come to my big day...

Please pray for us k :)

Thanks people.

Cold Cook

2009-11-03T20:40:00.005+10:00

Ok.
Maybe i am not a great cook. I cook for necessity. not pleasure
Hence, explained my skills of cooking in Brisbane.

I wouldn't survive financially if i were not to cook back there.
I practically do the cooking everyday. tried bits of this and that.
But when it comes to friends' potluck, i'd bring something from the Coles or Woolies :)
But i love cooking for my loved ones. .if they don't mind 'tasting' and 'criticizing' my dishes.

So now, when im home in Malaysia, with so much choices and affordable eat-outs or take-aways.
My cooking skills has going down frantically.

Therefore, i need to brush up my skills again before January. ( pity mr., but i will do my best)
So i went to do some groceries in cold storage,after work just now to cook dinner.

and to my SHOCK,

and the total is

RM 49.80!!
(including the fruits of course, and not even 10 items!! )

With this amount i could tapau nasi bungkus for 5 days!
With this amount of money, back in Aussie ( if using AUD) my groceries last for at least 3weeks!!

But here in KL., it lasts for a day. or two maybe. ( argh, things are so expensive in Msia!)

and i miss buying this yogurt. In Aussie. it only cost me , well. tak sampai AUD$4.
Here, as you can see i tub = RM 19.99!
crazy! even after u convert pun, it shouldn't be that expensive!

now you tell me, should i cook?

ps. if mr is reading this, dont worry. i will. :)

25 on 25th

2009-10-25T03:19:00.008+10:00

As far as i remember, i have always been surprised by my lovely friends on my birthday night when the clock strikes midnight.

my school years : in boarding school, what more can you say.. love my highschool girlfriends much!
my college years : being thrown into pool by college friends, sweet surprise by bestfriend
my uni years : being abroad in Aussie, surprises by good friends every year..kinda expected, but still a surprise

But this year, its different.

At midnight , a surprise by my much beloved family..
for the first time after like what.. more than 10 years..(kecik2 dulu tak kire laa :) )

adding to
the fact that these little nieces could stay awake in cinema and after, until midnight.
the fact that Mr. came all the way from the southern state.

(Lana was making a wish for me!)

Happy A Quarter of Century to me.

and to everyone for the wishes and everything..

love you people.

Teen's Life.

2009-10-24T00:12:00.006+10:00

If you ever come to my room when i was in high school ( around 14 years old ++ ),
you'd be shocked.

Cos the whole wall of my bedroom was filled with these guys' posters.i even framed a huge picture of them in one nice frame ( i wonder how my mum actually allowed it! Thanks mum!)
i even had one big, life sized poster of 4 of them ( and i cried when my first bro drew a mustache on it)
i even went to their show in Sg Wang Plaza! dragged Aisyah i think. Sanggup ambil outing on Saturday. ( i was in boarding school) and snapped LOT LOTS OF pictures. there were no digital camera at that time. So beli rolling film ( is that what we called last time, tak ingt dah!) yg plg byk laa...hahah..
i spent A LOT of money buying magazines monthly! ( smash hits, pops, galaxie, Man U) grrr... think of it now, i wouldnt buy entertainment mags imported from UK or US! was damn expensive! was so err wasted!

to sum up.
i was a huge big massive fanatical fan of THE MOFFATTS!!
Clint is my favourite.
the cute, bad boyish look with slight dye. ( oops. maybe i do really attracted to bad boy look!)

now im spending time reminscing the childhood times, watching them on Youtube! i can even sing along all the songs really well. i mean REALLY WELL!

this is one of them! my first favourite song.

haha. those times where life had no worries...
(except from Cik Aisah Abu Hurairah, my head warden whom i really missed, and exam results, obviously)

Cool Colleagues

2009-10-19T22:34:00.004+10:00

I just got back from visiting my colleague, Joey who was admitted to O&G ward. Pity her, in her 35th week of pregnancy, there is a complication with the baby. The fluid is really low. Pray that the baby and of course, mother will be fine :). Actually, she was supposed to deliver at one of the prestigious private hospitals in KL, however due to the complications that she is having. She was advised to deliver at at a facility with sufficient equipment ie. incubator etc, which is , HKL :) we seriously have no idea that our own hospital has all the facilities.

And being a pharmacist in HKL herself, she was entitled to get 1st class ward, which is not bad. Very far from what i expected it to be. I thought it will be like the wards that i used to do rounds and check ups. haha. No. its not. Its not much different from the private hospitals. ( of course there is, a little,..come one,, HKL is the oldest hospital in Malaysia. The hospital was built in 1870!)

Today is also the last day for my colleagues who will be transfered out from HKL! 6 of them are transfered to Sabah, 4 to Swak, 4 to pahang and a couple in kelantan. Suddenly like the whole chunk is out :( Kinda sad actually.. But it has been fun working with them. definitely will miss them....Onto transferring out, come to think of it, i dont think i would mind if i was to transfered to the Borneo side.. Zara is there ;) Some of BNE friends are there. My school friends are there. .Only if, only if, i dont have any other commitment especially family.
But again. ive been away from my family for quite some time, and im soon to be attached..lets hope the bahagian perkhidmatan farmasi has some mercy on me.
let me be close to my loved ones. ( still have 6 months to think of this)

talking about family. finally, i got the chance to bring my lovely nieces for a swim at my place.I have promised to them, for ages... and kids do remember what u said ok!!
but it feels so good to be with them..

( right after hectic work in HKL, i jumped into the pool too!)so kesian, karyssa had to stay away from the pool. couldnt join the sisters!

Its true , what they said in Handbook of Life ( will post on that later).
Spend more time with children under age of 5 and elderly more than age of 55.
I love listen to stories of the elderly too. their life, their experiences..their story could be lesson and example to us! :)

Nickname

2009-10-16T22:09:00.000+10:00

Sometimes, you are so used of calling your good friends with their nicknames and u tend do a slip of a mouth at inappropriate places.

I was trying to call my highschool friend , Jelot for lunch date with Fatty on Friday so being in the same hospital but hardly bump into each other due to tight schedule of our own,, i called her ward rather than unanswerable mobile phone.

Me : Hello Ward 12, May i speak to Dr Jelot please? Its Nadia from pharmacy.
(im good at making it sounds like work issues)
Nurse: Dr Jelot??? (She sounds puzzled)
Me : Yes.
Nurse : Errr.. (She might thought its a joke.)
Me: Oops, Im sorry. Dr Najlaa please.

In my case, in certain places, people will be puzzled if someone ask for Nadia instead of Denise.
Still remember during this one netball tournament back in Aussie, they put my full name in the list.. and as expected, they didn't know that it was actually me!

But definitely, not at my workplace. No one even knows I'm Denise. :)

monologue

2009-10-12T12:35:00.008+10:00

Im supposed to go to Penang hospital today to , of course again, get some medicine from them
( haa,, see, we sanggup travel jauh2 in a day trip to get ubat for the patients!) But now, im writing my blog from my hs...as im a bit unwell. (blame post on-call and late night shopping for the preparation) . Luckily, my colleague has willingly replaced me this morning for the trip ( siape tanak spend the whole day travelling and get extra hours off!kan)

Anyway during my last night on-call, while i was dispensing meds, i heard this couple were talking in slang that sounds so familiar and much missed.. They are actually tourists from Aussie who unluckily got into accident. So i dispensed the painkiller,antibiotic etc.,and of course,being friendly me talking and 'counselling'tthem,, But when i heaard their ' no worries mate'. It did put a smile on my face. Couldnt really borak2 pjg cos too many people waiting to be served :(

image courtesy: here

But, i really really miss Brisbane. I miss the laid back lifestyle, the people, the life.my student life, .the working life there. Sometimes i wonder, whether i am actually really ready to come back. Maybe i haven't fully prepared myself yet to leave that place..

And maybe, Allah has decided that its best for me to come back for my family and mr.
Well, that is a certain. not maybe.
I just need to learn to let it go, and cherish it as good memories in the past kan.

Back there, when i was missing my family and friends so bad, i know, at some point of time, i will see them again. and at the end of the journey in Aussie, ill be back home for good. But now, i know. there will be no more 'living' there. u know.. visiting is definitely different from living.

I do enjoy what i'm doing now..( except i have no more time for sports and less free time to enjoy) I do like working in HKL though a bit tiring i must admit. I do love being surrounded by family, him and friends.
( the best part of being home is them.) Im happy to be home.
I am soo thankful for that.

But how do i stop this 'missing the place' feeling??

BreakA Lift

2009-10-09T21:24:00.007+10:00

I was on my way to Hospital Serdang to borrow some meds for HKL , when i thought of this.

i was rushing since the HKL driver has been waiting for me, so had to skip my precious breakfast and settled for NESCAFE can in the car...How i miss these drinks. .Where can i find the substitute here in Msia?

Btw, yesterday. i had my morning off. So after lunch, when i have dressed up myself for work, while i was going down to the lobby. the lift was having fun with me!

Can you imagine the lift went up to 40th floor down to lower ground a couple of times, before it stopped in the middle of nowhere!!!I could even feel the 'BANG', as if it dropped at the most bottom floor of the building!!I pressed the emergency button a couple of times before someone attended to my call.

I wasnt even panicking, but the guards keep on asking me to relax and dont panic. I didnt say much words ( just simple yes, no, erm , yeah) cos i was busy playing games in my phone! no reception, no network, so games is what i have. They were trying to cool me down repeatedly ( though i was cool enough) and it made me worried a while. But they did sound panic though. I tried not to think of the negative thoughts cos that will only make things worse.
luckily i have yogurt bar, chewing gum and a bottle of mineral water in my bag. and of course, sanitizer too. So i was kinda prepared, if i was to stuck there for long hours... :( The funny thing is, apart from playing games, I also listed down 'things to do' today! haha. being so optimistic that the lift will be fixed anytime soon.

After quite some time, it was fixed. i had to climb a bit cos the lift didnt stuck at the proper place!! Then i thought, i was quite bad actually. no wonder the guard keeps on asking me not to panic! haha.

The moral of the story : Dont live in a condominium. with a dodgy elevator.
I will write a complaint note to the management. later. haha.

The good thing was i skipped my work as i only have 2 hours left!

But will be working again on weekends - there goes my date with mr, jid's and nurul+mira's open houses, , mr 's friend's wedding, lunch/bfast with salwa, aiza+dilla, movie with apoo +jelot+fatty, chillis with colleague and precious time with my nephew and nieces!

*sigh* my social life jatuh merudum.

emo post..

2009-10-07T19:57:00.007+10:00

with the current decision that i made,,
when most ppl would not be on my side..

i just need support.

it may not be the best decision that i made.
it may seems like i never listen.
it may seems like a ridiculous thing to do.

if its a mistake in a long run, i will bear it myself, cos its my own risk that im taking.
I promise i wouldn't be bugging your life., with it.

but i still treasure you guys as important people in my life. i still do care.. very much. i still love.

i'm deeply sorry.
to those who might have hurt with my current decision, who i might dissapoint.

and thank you zillions much to those who understand.

Stuck in Store

2009-10-04T21:21:00.006+10:00

Do you have any ideas how much the goverment spent for the medications alone??

A LOT~

and yes, its all free ( for the beloved citizens) The only thing that they charge ,depending on the hospital is RM 1 for the registration fees ( where some ppl can just drop rm1 note, not bothering to pick it up again!)

Im currently in the pharmacy/surgical store. Dealing with all the drug reps, drug companies, agents. Stocking up medications needed in the hospital , Making payment ( whoa.. i never see such amount of money in one receipt ok!) , ordering drugs, lending/borrowing drugs from other hospitals., monitoring
the drug movement/stock in each department.

And the place is extremely busy.the phone never stops ringing, soo many paperworks to be done, pilling up day by day. I get to work , sit on a comfy chair, and get stucked in there untill 5!
Thank God, no work need to be brought back home.

As much as i love sitting during work, i think i prefer standing better:) im used to counsell or dispense meds. I prefer communicating with the patients rather than drug reps or drug company, or bothering them to send their stock order FAST.

Blame the Aussie education system that has groomed us to be 'serve-the-people' pharmacist.

haha.

Sporty Side

2009-09-27T16:23:00.002+10:00

Thank God for Australian network on Astro, i got to watch the game.

But to my disappointment, my favorite team, Brisbane Broncos lost to Melbourne Storm.

(September 25, 2009 - Photo by Robert Cianflone/Getty Images AsiaPac)

Thats the end of 2009 season for my Broncos.

But miss the familiar faces of Lockyer, Hunt, Slater, Fulao on TV.. Though its much better when i bumped into them in the Brisbane City :)

anyway, i still miss watching netball game. Playing netball is even worse. .Miss it badly

Blissful Eid

2009-09-22T00:25:00.010+10:00

After the usual routine of pagi raya (going to the mosque for Solat Eid'l Fitri with the whole family)

This much-loved little boy, the only newphew of mine, has created a drama on Eid's morning. .

He wanted to play the piano instead of joining the salam-salaman amongs the family.
He refused to receive any duit raya, even the act of salam ( shake hand!)

He even tried to hide behind the curtain, to express his anger.
And i managed to talk to him and yes, i was the first that he salam and received the duit raya.

And the best part was,

ALL OF US! the whole family had to sing Wonderpet''s theme song in Malay, during the shoot

APA YANG PENTING?! KERJAAAASAMA!!

so he would join the group picture and sit still :)

and we did it!

but my mum said, we wouldnt frame this one, cos there will be 2 more addition of people in the family in few months 3-9 months time! :)

btw, this is the first time i celebrated raya after 5 years abroad and the first time that the family is complete during raya as my sister and I are home for good. So i expected that we would go around to houses the whole day like we used to do 5 - 6 years ago. But we didnt. Just one - two houses.
Well. my mum and dad are the elders now. Most of my older uncles/aunties/grandmas/pas in Melaka have passed away.
Plus, we didnt have time to go out as we had non-stop guests till midnight..
in addition to,my maid was on 'holiday' :( so i was busy preparing and serving the food.
Well, good thing is i think i could lose some weight during this eid :)

Though i miss my raya days back in Brisbane, celebrating with my friends,
( thinking of Zara on raya day cos she was the one that i spent EVERY YEAR OF MY 5 years of RAYA there!)
but i had a great first and second day of raya this year with my super beloved family and mr.
( though he only came at night for the bbq)

And to my beloved friends , readers , everyone who celebrate..
Wishing you Eid Mubarak. I really do apologize for any wrongdoings.. tersalah silap kata, halal makan minum dan segalanya.

Selamat Hari Raya~

purple balloon

2009-09-17T21:49:00.004+10:00

Currently, im in the cancer department. Preparing and checking the dosage of chemotherapy+ preparation of cytotoxic drugs to be given to the cancer patients. The drug names are pretty alien to me. Even i find them hard to pronounce! Moreover to know the mechanism of actions. well slowly i learn.

btw, last Saturday, after i had my break fast with mr and our friends. i met a pakcik. The pakcik's 5 year old son is apparently in one of the paediatric wards in HKL, suffering from Burkitt's Lymphoma. He( the son) was having the operation to have his chemo port done on the chest so he asked me if i could visit him whenever i free.

Well, so i went to visit him on Monday, and Masha Allah, he is sooo cute and friendly! He is so smart and he even talks a lot. Sadly he is already in stage 4, but well miracles can happen kan. and with the advance technology, cancer is now curable. InsyaAllah.

back to him, i gave him duit raya. And you know what he said to me

kakak, terima kasih ya. tapi kalau boleh, boleh tak kakak tolong belikan sy belon dengan duit ni?

of course, i would buy him balloons! but not with the duit raya that i gave him.

And...when he found out that im actually a pharmacist who in charge of the medications,
he actually complained to me,
kakak, morphine ni buat sy pening kepala la..Sy sakit kepala sbb ubat-ubat ni kan.
ha ha, even a kid knows how to complain about adverse drug reaction.

And..

You know what he said to the doctors/specialist.

"Please doctors, dont give me too much painkillers, i have had enough morphine. I dont want to end up like Michael Jackson!"
- haa kau. budak 6 tahun knows about the side effect and risk of too much painkillers

and when the doctor actually asked him whether he is afraid to be alone in the operation theathre ( OT) . Guess what he said

" Takpe.. Allah and Rasul kan ada"

Isnt he adorable kan?!

iAllah, now apart from my job, i have to add another routine.
go to his ward and give him a balloon :)

d u i t r a y a

2009-09-14T22:45:00.003+10:00

Just when I thought, i wont be receiving anymore duit raya this year,

I got this.

I received a mail from Down Under, from my beloved ex-employer whom i miss :)
This is not a normal mail.
Its duit raya $$$ mail - end of financial year for the Australians, hence tax return for me!

Thank you Australian Government!! Sorry for not serving your country anymore..
But thanks for the generous return
( well my money too, but still can be considered my duit raya la kan! )

Happy ( gambar tidak berkaitan, but this is the ball that i love to play in the hs when im bored, esp with the nieces/nephew around)

* now smiling.. sambil memasukkan duit raya ke dalam angpau untuk diberikan kepada keluarga yang tercinta"

locum

2009-09-11T22:40:00.002+10:00

I just thought of doing locum , after hospital-hours -
meaning extra job in retail pharmacy with lucrative ( well not so pun) pay on hourly basis.

Then KKM came with this regulation and notice 2 weeks ago :(

A hospital pharmacist can only do locum after 2 years of services in hospital!

-------- disappointing -------

workaholic?

2009-09-07T23:01:00.003+10:00

I never think that i would become a workaholic.
I never want to be.

But i am becoming one, i guess. ( blame those ppl who set the on-call timetable)

Not because i want to be. But i have to. ( its in the duty roster! and part of my job)

Though i was whining and complaining about doing on-calls, working at odd hours...

I honestly,

do find satisfaction in doing it.

do find the smile on kids' face are pretty soothing to me.

( normally the patients who come at night are the paeds ( children) )

And some parents let me talk and explain to the kids about the medication and how to take it and THE NEED to take it ( of course, supervised by the mother and father la)

And to the foreigners who come at night to get the medication..
With the non-stop phone-calls from the wards, or from the junior doctors, asking what medication and dose should be given...

err. i hate to admit this.
but i think i like doing the night on-call.

I may not have the life that i expected it to be.
By the time i was home, im too tired to go out and chill or lepak2 like i used to do.
By the time i was home, i have to revise ( i only started working, so im still not competent enough) the things that i encounter during the day/night.
By the time i was home, internet and phone were like my only sources to the outside world.
( ok i sound like a nerd now. how pathetic)

But Allah is fair.

I love what i am doing now.
penat sikit la tp.

Alhamdulillah.

being an adult...

2009-09-04T00:56:00.002+10:00

when i was so small, i never crave of 'wanting to grow up fast'

luckily, i did not. i never was.

and Thank God, i was enjoying those times..as i grew up

But being an adult is no fun.
It comes with responsibilities, deals and risks, life experiences. and many more..

But we are still learning, as we go through it.

well, what doesnt kill you will make you stronger kan.

No wonder, they say,

as u get older, u get wiser

My Post On-Call

2009-09-02T00:52:00.003+10:00

10 years ago, merdeka night, new year eve is one the nights that we look forward to. Fireworks in KLCC or wherever it could have, sleepover.,etc.
( i still miss those days some times)
That was then. Not anymore now, prefer spending the times, resting at home.

But this year's merdeka night.
i was in the hospital. doing on-call.

After work- went back home, straight to the bed - had long good sleep.
Woke up late by the sound of my niece.
Went for swimming with her
Called Mc Donalds for delivery.
Had lunch, the two of us.
my 5 year-old niece and almost 5 x 5 year old of me.
Until my bro came, then i remembered,
It was Ramadhan.

BUt i couldnt puasa anyway. ( that explains )

*Sigh.. the effect of on-call aftermath*

cant wait to puasa again.

smile

2009-08-27T23:49:00.006+10:00

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

out of MJ,NatKingCole ,Tony Bennet, my fav is when this song is sung by Barbara Streissand.

But the message of the song is what i love the most.

Ramadhan Mubarak

2009-08-22T02:09:00.005+10:00

After 5 years abroad, i finally home to celebrate Ramadhan with my family.

I am really excited thinking of ramadhan and syawal here, and now, im waiting for my bro. to head back to melaka tonight to celebrate our first day of Ramadhan together.

Well, just now, we were planning to go Masjid Wilayah for Terawih prayers. So while we were in the elevator ( still at my place ;) ), i noticed a malay family with the mother was wearing telekung ( which is a rare scene in my place. i hardly see Msians here). And they didnt stop at neither lobby nor the carpark. So being a friendly me, i asked them where they are going to perform the prayers. And then, i found out that actually there was a teraweh prayer in our banquet hall :) so i opted to join them .

And after the prayer, me and my sister were saying to each other , our first teraweh in Msia feels like back in overseas. haha. not much difference. the imam was an indonesian/bruneian. with the maa'mums from america, ozi, oman,arabs, etc, filled with foreigners and its not in a proper surau/mosque. ( haih, tetibe miss pulak suasana berpuasa di perantauan)

Its ok, we still have 29 nights to do the teraweh :)

Anyway.
Ramadhan Mubarak everyone. May the month be blessed upon all of us.
i do apologize for any wrongdoings to everyone.

Enjoy the fasting months and its blessings!

salam.

ps.the post was supposed to be posted on the first day of ramadhan, but couldnt find the time. well, its only the 4th day kan. Not too late to wish all of u.

balik kampung

2009-08-18T22:23:00.006+10:00

I went back to Kedah last weekend for my cousin's wedding.
after almost 7 years tak balik kedah ok.

also,my chance to meet my aunties+uncles and mum's sides back in Kedah.

However, due to work commitment, i almost canceled the trip. I already swapped my on-calls few times this month. And last week, on Friday, my senior pharmacist asked me to correct some works and it need to be done by Monday.. last minute ok. Meaning to say, i have to cancel my trip to Kedah. It was at the very last hour before we departed to kedah, i decided to hold on my work and join my family instead ;)

Seeing the padi grass, really made me miss my Tok.. Both of them have passed away years ago.
( hence, explained the 7 years of absence in Kedah) Moreover, meeting my cousins reminiscing the times when we were small.. really brought back the old good memories. And im sure if Tok was still alive, she would be proud of the cucu-cucu. We are all over the world, every continents and alhamdulillah,her wish to see few doctors, engineers,lecturers, profesionals amongst her cucus is fulfilled.No matter what job are we doing, even some are still studying, but alhamdullilah, all of us are doing fine. Alhamdullilah. Thanks to Allah.

these are the 4 dara pingitan. cousins + sisters :)
when we were small, you will see 4 of us in same clothes whenever we balik kg, and we were inseparable back then!We were really close when we were small. and still do whenever we meet up. After so many years abroad, we are now back together :) *yeay* so mmg sgt la susah nak dpt picture 4 of us. All of us are now have settled down in M'sia, except Alia who is flying back to New York next week. She fall in love with the city after working there for months.
Now she's doing her master in NYU. She's pursuing her master while im pursuing my mister.

and these are my aunties.

From left sitting: Auntie Z-Maksu-Mak-Makcik
Standing at behind: Auntie Leha - MakNgah

youngest will be maksu - 45++ years old this year and oldest is well my mom. ( 55++! ) note: the double plus :) umur sebenar dirahsiakan.. And yet, despite the age, they are MUCH slimmer than me ok! ( except of course, my mum ;) ) These are just the sisters of my mum.. brothers no picture la.

And yes, i miss this and i got to indulge in this when i was back in Alor Setar.

and i miss him too :(

Thank God,when i arrived anxiously at the hospital on Monday morning ( with very little preparation but still buat laa...), my senior pharmacist told me it was postponed to Friday! See, ada hikmah kan,,, Allah has showed me that family is more important than work. ;)

death is a definite

2009-08-12T20:23:00.004+10:00

I am not a doctor so i never encounter dying patient.
I am a pharmacist so i usually give drugs to patient and review the condition so that he or she could get better.

In my current department, i have to check the in-patients' current liver profile, electrolyte level, water level etc. must be in normal level. So to correct any abnormalities of the electrolytes or nutrients, we would give parenteral nutrition. Or if patients cant swallow or cant have any food by mouth or their gastrointestinal is not funtioning well. It is like we are feeding the patients intravenously. We have to decide which regime to give, how many Kcal, how much water, how much electrolytes, proteins etc to put in the bag. ( and the food bag, i tell you. stinks)

But this morning,

I was doing ward-rounds with my senior pharmacist.
And i came across 2 patients who were already 'classified' by the doctors as DEATH IN LINE.
when i was checking these 2 patients ( in 2 different wards, mind you) somehow it made me realize how lucky am I to be alive and healthy. Its a great reminder to me to be close to Allah, being thankful to Him for granting me this life. Seeing these patients surrounded by family members who were reciting Yassin really touched my heart. I feel sorrow and deeply regret with the sins , erroneous attitude that i have, neglecting all the nikmats that Allah has been giving to me. i cant imagine being in the position of the patient himself or even the family. Knowing the fact ( told by the dr) that nothing can be done and waiting for the death?! ( though we are still treating the patients by giving the medications, running the parenteral nutrition , checking them every day.. Well, miracles could happen too kan)

Imagine yourself in that situation? How would you handle it?

Alhamdullilah, Thanks To Allah, that my family,my loved ones,my friends are doing ok.
Please God, let us be in our best of health and iman.
Amin.

H1N1 & HKL

2009-08-09T01:04:00.005+10:00

I wonder la.

If they can close down the schools, universities, offices etc.
Can they at least give one week break to the hospital?
*haha.. stupid question. i know*

But the number of patients in HKL has increased ENORMOUSLY! TREMENDOUSLY!
Can you imagine at nights, usually in outpatient department, we could have like less than 100 patients, or well normally ,say 200-300 patients la per night.
But now. guess what. the number is around 2000-3000 patients per night?! ! *whatdaa*
Same macam siang hari ok! If during day time, still can cope because at least 20 ppl are working in the outpatient pharmacy, but malam. ade 4 org jer babe.. plg byk 5 org la. HOW?!

our opd at daytime. not so busy time. but still..the ppl ..

Even now. the clinics and private hospitals are referring the patients to HKL and our Tamiflu laku mcm pisang goreng. oops. we dont sell them. we give them for free. And yes, its like raining ( according to my colleague) " kasik tamiflu mcm hujan jer".

and another colleague of mine is admitted to the ward currently.wishing her speed recovery .

why la, at times like this. i have to be in the hospital. :( (duhh,, thats my workplace )
Not to mention, asyik kene night and weekend on-calls yg bertambah2 and nonstop for me + takboleh cuti sbb h1n1 lagi + bermcm2 lg.

so my dear friends, i understand if you ppl dont ajak me lepak2 ok..dont have to. FOR NOW la.

But seriously, we are kinda exposed to it everyday. :( InsyaAllah, tawakal to Allah kan.

can i go to far far away land.

2009-08-06T21:08:00.007+10:00

i really want to go back to Brisbane
o well, not really. cos that will brings lots lots of memories
maybe i need to go somewhere else

to clear this mind of mine.
to leave the bits and pieces of thinking behind.
to run away.

o btw, short update :)

my enforcement period... super cool giler tak hengat.! never know such position of pharmacist existed ok! the position is called, Penolong Pengarah Farmasi - sort of like - drug police/ police pharmacist or lawyer pharmacist - go to the courts, do inspections, raids places, do test buy ( where we pretended to buy something and then tangkap if u practise against the law and the products that you sell is not registered or contain poisons) .. the drug company, cosmetics, spas, clinics, kedai ubat and pharmacies was like scared of them... esp if u do wrong la.. super duper cool!!

( the very 'overwhelmed' me to be in court -

Zara will be laughing seeing this kan! She's a lawyer, this is her nest! i assume :) )

But people, just be careful. There are so many products or services out there that claim will do good, but ull never know what it actually does. either in short or long term. So make sure the product is registered with the board. There are certain criterias la. ( if i have the time, ill explain more. :) for now, if u wanna know, just msg me or whoever pharmacist that you know)

( during one of the exhibitions in PWTC)

and yes, the place is also full with eye-candies ( preeti,jivanti and dorothy know what i mean) Erm.. if only HKL got few of the candies,, pls few will make our days! haha. but my 2 weeks was super duper fun!! really miss that place :(

Back in HKL now. Back to the hectic days. Back to the tough cases of TPN and mind-boggling wards. * well this time, we have to wear masks whenever we are in wards * bummer.

and yes, thank you ppl ( u know who u r) for being there *hugs* been a tough week too. :(

Civic Awareness

2009-07-19T16:22:00.005+10:00

I was proud to be a Malaysian when i was in Australia. i really do.

But when im home, i dont feel the spirit anymore
( except when Malaysia scored against Man U yesterday. The environment in the stadium was superb! The stadium was flooded with RED but when Msia scored, everyone was like standing and cheering. Havent seen Malaysia so United! )

BTW, that isnt my story.

My story is this.

how filthy the place was. Ive been to few stadiums back in Australia. and i hardly see any empty cans/ sampah lying around. Its because we throw our stuff in a bin, i think.
Even in the cinema, i dont just leave my popcorn/ drinks behind to be picked by someone else.

and some other experiences i encountered when i was working.

ish.. when la we will change?

stupid stupid audit.

2009-07-08T23:43:00.004+10:00

i dont want to go to work tomorrow and friday.
i did not want to go to work last monday, tuesday and today.
For the first time, ( haha i just started working for months)
but this is the first time, i hate my job

Thank God, its not really related to my REAL job as a pharmacist.
i have to do this freaking audit thingy for a week from 8-5.

standing all day long- observing- double checking- looking for any dispensing error- jot it down -make ppl get annoyed with me

i even went back during lunch back just to watch the re-run of MJ's memorial on CNN.
and cried ( as if i really know him. but it touched my heart)

Well,

i dont mind if the drug addicts forged my signature to take extra doses- for she will later be punished

i dont mind if an old lady was whining about her life and i have to re-explain again and again about the medication and her illness.

i dont mind if i have to stand up the whole day, screening, filling, and dispensing meds to the patients.

i dont care if i have to be in ward, clerking all the cases, talking to the patient, ensuring quality use of medicine.

i dont mind if i need to the calculation for TDM to ensure correct and optimal dose is given

i dont mind if i need to do report and summary on the application for drug to be approved by Msian board.

i dont mind to do the H1N1 on call, exposing myself to the flu ( i got flu jab and fully protected with berlapis clothing)

i dont mind any job/task of any pharmacist would do.

But please,
not the task that im doing now. ( one hell of depressing week)

please , friday come soon.

oh no, i have on calls this sat and sun.

saya sangat rindu main bola jaring

2009-07-06T22:09:00.003+10:00

At times like this, when its close to MASCA, and work is stressing me out :(, i really wanna play netball.

I was talking to Ika, my successor for QLD netball :) poyoe ok. but dont care la..She was updating me about all the bits and pieces of netball in brisbane. aaahhh, i miss the feeling of cuakness before the masca games or any tournament, managing the team and of course, playing netball.

They are probably in the bus, going to Sydney by the time they read this. Or never read this or whatever

But im wishing you girls well . I pray for Gold for you girls. :) well, win or lose doesnt really matter. what matters most is we play our best and enjoy the game :)

arghhhhhhhhhhh rindu pls :(

H1N1

2009-06-30T23:40:00.006+10:00

I am actually blogging from bilik gerakan H1N1 , HKL. It is not as busy as earlier shift. Hence, the blog :)

pics taken during the day of my shift. from mobile. ( no , i didnt bring my camera)

It was my first time doing my on call here in HKL, in Msia. So, i was pretty new to the NIGHT environment in hospital. Well. most of my patients today are ,, well i would consider them from the upper-class society ( though there's no such words in Msia) in Msia. I could tell they are not used to the 'government hospital' system and the question that i received the most today is, " so... how much is the medication?".. :) . its free in GH.

Since there isnt any camp opened for swine flu in KL, so HKL is the only choice. One of the 'aunties' was whining to me.. " i wanted to go to Damansara Specialist or any private hospital, but they told me the only camp is in HKL". Yes auntie. The private hospitals dont provide this service. This service which requires me to do sacrifice my night to do the on -call as well as the doctor's.

MJ is no more.

2009-06-27T00:49:00.005+10:00

I was on my way to work when i heard the news on the radio. Not really a big fan of him, but i pretty much growing up, listening to his songs and loving the music.. I must say he was a very talented person.

I wasnt sure whether he had converted to Islam or not. Read in a few international tabloids, but hopefully it was true.

btw, when i watch the early breaking news on BBC and CNN ( at first), i heard the full statement from his bro.
But its funny when after the breaking news, CNN actually cut the last part when the brother mentioned Allah. ( the last sentence).

wondering why? *ermmm*

At the end of the statement of his bro,

"Our family requests that the media please respect our privacy during this tough time,
and may Allah be with you Michael, always." - Jermaine Jackson.

F.a.m.i.l.y

2009-06-07T00:00:00.005+10:00

The pictures have never been complete..for years....

mak and ayah

abg faizal n family

abg farid n family

abg fahrul

my lil bro farouk not little anymore

I was home few months ago. introducing him to the family.

And now my one and only sister, Yati is home too.

complete family home again. :)

Alhamdullilah. Thank you Allah.

I had a dream

2009-05-30T14:31:00.004+10:00

Its weekend *yeay* and im back in my hometown to attend a wedding. But last night i had a dream.. I dreamt about Vancomycin, Gentamicin, Amikacin etc. My mind was boggling with the calculation of the drug monitoring. how pathetic was that. i even bring my work in my dream.

Im attached to the TDM currently, - therapeutic drug monitoring. Which basically, i have to recalculate, suggest and decide what dose to give for drugs with narrow therapeutic index. In layman term, i have to make sure the recommendation of dose that i give will benefit the patient and minimize the side effects or toxicity in the body. First day was a hell for me, cos im new to the clinical/ ward settting in the hospital. Back in Australia, we are more exposed to the community pharmacy as we , the pharmacists have the dispensing right. ( unlike here in Msia :( and we could give MC too!! ) So i was a bit blur when i have to go the wards, read the dr's NICEEEEEEEEE handwriting, checking the renal profile, evaluate the drugs etc. Not to mention, the medications used here are slightly different. So when i bumped into another pharmacist who was graduated and registered in Aussie, we have so many things to whine and talk about... But its good to know that im not alone, haha.O since im working in the wards, i have to bring back my work to home to actually study the cases that i clerked during the day.. not cool eh.This attachment really reminds me of them. really need to thank them, Carl and Neil!! they taught us well how to handle cases. cos we hardly get real cases from hospitals. so we just did it in the tutorials. :)

And another thing that i need is this.or

im contemplating whether should i get a PDA or a netbook. I really need to have all the informations on hand while at work. Its hard flipping at the book and bringing all the thick books to the wards.

Ps. The government should provide us with one of the gadgets esp for the clinical/ward pharmacists. :) In Brisbane, each of the hospital pharmacists will own one ( provided by the hospital).Its for the better quality use of medicine of the patients too :)

The card is ready.

2009-05-22T20:13:00.006+10:00

Right after i came back from work, i was checking my mailbox when i received this big envelope from London. From the handwriting, i know it was my bestfriend's hwrtg and already, it made me smile sooo widely!

But when i opened the envelope, tears of happiness coming down from my eyes.

i saw the most beautiful wedding card ive ever received,
and more importantly, her name , Azzahraa is actually written on it.

I cant believe she's getting married soon with the man of her life. Which i have approved all along haha.. from the first day i met him.. :) Amir, you are one lucky man to have Azzahraa and i know he will definitely take a very good care of her, and make her happy.

and yes Azz you are lucky to get Amir too ;)on her engagement day

And when i read the short letter that she wrote, i cried even more.

And i realise how much i miss her :(

o July, please come soon

CONGRATULATIONS DEAR! love you lots.